It's killing me, but as long as you're happy...

Sometimes I just wonder if anyone tries as hard as I do. Not in all aspects of life. But I wonder if anyone tries to make me happy as hard as I try to make them happy. I can't help but feel like no one does. I'm not mad about it really, it's not the end of my world, but it bothers me a little. It bothers me that I could sacrifice myself and my happiness to entertain and comfort, but no one seems to try to want to throw me a small bit of happiness at all. I've been feeling really down lately and the fact that I'm alone only adds fuel to the fire, the fact that I'm miserable and feel worthless remains unacknowledged. No matter how much I cry out for a little bit of love I get nothing, but I try my best to give so much of it. And really after putting this out into the universe I don't want love out of pity, I don't. I don't want a friend to read this and say 'OH I know how to make her feel better!' Honestly it'd mean nothing. Nothing but worthless pity.
I wanted you to realize that maybe you have to give back what you get.
I wanted you all to realize that the changes in my life never affect the attention I give you, but any alteration of your life is cause for chaos.
I want a little attention in my dreams, in my daydreams, in my own words. I don't even focus on my own plots in stories it's so sad, I don't say what I want too much because I feel like I'm begging and being needy...I like to give.

It's so funny because everyone thinks I'm greedy...yet two seconds later they think I'm so generous...
I'm a giver more often, but it's so easy to notice how much I take...
Idk what I'm saying anymore...I just want someone to give back and heaven forbid I get it, because then I'm greedy.

Sail

Set sails aiming for the sake of savin'
Hoping for the hiding sun
Wading in the oceans making no movement
Waiting til time was gone

I would always call
Never seemed to fall for
The way you looked and cared for life
You were never there, the waves just kept you by

Invisible and powerless is how I sat at night
Upright; Out of mind is out of sight
Close into me, I hold out for the light
Oh, but out of mind, I'm out of sight

I would never tell you
Never make days come to
An end that didn't fit quite tight
But someone else told me
Someone else known me--
Better than I ever thought you might

I sat praying on the shores sayin'
That you'd never ever ever find the light
Or you'd pull back, stay in
Could you make your way in?
Without pride fakin' a fight

Invisible and powerless is how I sit at night
Upright; Out of mind is out of sight
Close into me, I hold out for the light
Oh, but out of mind, I'm out of sight

When will the tides
--I'll sleep at night--
To take me in strides
--Stay out of sight--

(When will I...When will I...When will I...)

Invisible and powerless is how I sit at night (When will I?)
Upright; Out of mind is out of sight (When will I?)
Close into me, I hold out for the light (When will I?)
Oh, but out of mind, I'm out of sight (When will I?)
Out of sight.

Quote

Monster I can't fight you off
I only know how to make you turn on
Monster I know where you are
You get lost, but never not found

Speak in tongues, I understand
Speak in tongues, I'm at your command

No one can see
But I don't need
This recognition
For my condition
I need you please
Hold tight, disease

Quote

Count your blessings
My heart's on the line
Count your blessings
And lie to me, lie to me
Tell me you're fine
Cause love doesn't happen over night
Love doesn't happen
Without a fight

Lay your arms down
Start the war
Love is worth it
So I've heard
I can't wait by the sidelines
This battle's mine
And it is time

Here's your heart
Keep it away
Am I supposed to
Try to keep the fight at bay
Should I pretend
You don't see, you don't see me

Broken Glass (different version start)

But how can you fix
What's already broken?
And words like this
Can't be unspoken
You once were my
Perfect reflection
Now a lost connection
A broken part
Of me...

Quote

I'm gonna be that exception
I'll never fall in love
I'm gonna be that chase
That's more alive on the outside
I'm gonna be that exception
I'll never fall in love
I'm not the type to want
What I can't have

Don't look me in the eyes
You'd see too much
Walk on by,
I'm used to being tough
My clawed out sides
Make me stand so straight
Never falter, nor look, nor touch
But avoid fate

I'm gonna be that exception
I'll never fall in love
I'm gonna be that chase
That's more alive on the outside
I'm gonna be that exception
I'll never fall in love
I'm not the type to want
What I can't have

Quote

If there were second chances
I think you'd be the one to screw it up
The only reason I hear your calls
Is so you don't ever fuck things up

I had my hopes up
For your recovery

If blood is thicker than water
Then why is it so easy to clean
It's harder for me to see the clear
So it's not constantly reminding me

I had my hopes up
For our recovery
I had my hopes up
But now they brought me down

Oh,oh,oh. (Oh!)

Sorry (lyrics- unfinished)

I guess I should've taken it into account
That I can't control what comes out of my mouth
And your reaction never fails to surprise
You got it all backwards, I'm on your sides

Oh, take my breath and put into a box
Before you play the victim and cut me off--

Well you say sorry
At all the wrong times
Cause' it's much harder
To know I'm right
Eh hey hey
It doesn't mean a thing
Eh hey hey
When you speak with no feeling



Well you say sorry
At all the wrong times
Cause' it's much harder
To know I'm right
Well you say sorry
To all the wrong things
Always denyin'
You could be losing
Eh hey hey
It doesn't mean a thing

Take my breath
Take my words a-
Take my breath
Take my words away
Away!

Well you say sorry
At all the wrong times
Cause' it's much harder
To know I'm right
Well you say sorry
To all the wrong things
Always denyin'
You could be losing
Well you say sorry
At all the wrong times
Well you say sorry
At all the wrong times
Well you say sorry
To all the wrong things

Eh hey hey
It doesn't mean a thing

Breathe (lyrics)

Take my time to mend
Close my eyes again
So I make my way across
To you
You found me hiding
Not letting the light in
So I may try to lie
To you

I was falling, was falling
Always falling down

And I can't find out how to breathe
Without a little sympathy
A lost cause
Always down on my knees
And I'm trying to breathe
Impossible cause'...
I'm just me



And I can't find out how to breathe
Without a little sympathy
A lost cause
Always down on my knees
And I'm trying to breathe
Impossible cause'...
I'm just me

Quote

Have I not turned out how you wanted?
After all I only promised I'd keep faith
And if believing in nothing isn't faith
Than I don't know what is, my dear

It takes dedication to convince yourself
Of what's to come and never does
I've done your best and still
I don't know what it is, my dear

Don't sell me so soon
I'm stalling in the last lights
All for you and love
Is another word for
excuses, excuses

Quote

Boy, you make me never want to sleep
With my eyes wide open, it's better than a dream
Boy, you make me never want to sleep
Because the morning could change...everything...

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray for you, your mine to keep

Islands (lyrics)

I've anchored here, not planning to stay
You're never gonna stop me
Don't get in my way
Cause' I may be crazy
But I'm going baby
Places that I've never seen
The world is calling me--away

I won't be gone forever
But not forever is better than never!

I'm leaving here
& Nothing's gonna stop me
There's things that I gotta do
I have everything to prove


This town's become too familiar
Every street I pass, it looks the same
I'm leaving. I don't care.
Everything will be


I won't be gone forever
Just long enough and that's better than never!

quote

Mirror, mirror on the wall
The only one who's heard it all
They say your surface can tell all lies
But only from you I never hide

‎My mouth is full of apologies
I never want to say,
The right kind of lies,
For the wrong kind of liar.
I'm not afraid of the light,
Just afraid of the fire.

Simple (unfinished)

And as I try to take a hold
I lose myself to self-control
I've made my mind so now I'll go
I know what's down this road

It's simple and
I'm losing my own everything
Can't feel my hands
Can't reach out to anything

They tell me I'm gone
Been crazy for so long
Say I lost my mind
And I--And oh I--

And as I try to take a hold
I lose myself to self-control
I've made my mind so now I'll go
I know what's down this road

Quote

Maybe you should tell someone what you think about them
Maybe you should give someone a second chance
Lean over the looking glass and dive right in
Take a glance at your reflection and without giving in

Maybe someone could try for a second
And maybe you could be their one
Maybe your heart could stand wide open
Without conditions

Quote

Waited up for hours
To hear your voice
I'd never bother you too much
But wouldn't it be lovely
If it was your choice
To wanna hear mine

I didn't think I had done something wrong
Obviously I was mistaken
I didn't think I was a waste of time
I forgot your heart was taken

Wake Me Up (lyrics - unfinished)

I feel like chasing every scene on the pavement
I feel like I'm running barefoot on
Steaming ground
And as I'm losing all that I've been chasin'
I feel like everything I want has been found
Pull me. Take me. Take me. Break me down. Break me down.

I feel like I am six feet under
Six feet under the--clouds
I feel like my heart has begun to beat again
I feel like my life has been found
Wake me up, wake me up, make me feel my
Wake me, take me, don't forget to save me.

Wake me up while there's a chance
Wake me up I'm falling fast
Cause in the aftermath
My dreams, they came too fast
So wake me up before you're gone
Wake me up before you're gone

I feel like I'm surrounded in my home
But I feel like I am on my own
I feel everyone is following the footsteps of the--followers
And I just wanna be myself
Wake me, break me, mistake me, don't forget me
Make me, break me, I need someone to save me...

Wake me up before you go
Wake me up before I gotta know (you)
Wake me up before you go
Wake me up before you're gone

Gone. Gone.
Before you're Gone.
You're Gone.
Gone.

The nightmares come and I am
On my knees again
The blackness calls
On my knees again

Wake me up, wake me up, wake me up, wake me up before you...go

Wake me up (

I feel like I've been chasing dreams
I feel like I've been wide asleep
I feel like I've been chasing dreams
I feel like I've been asleep

Quote

Somehow I've fallen down and I can't save myself
Somehow I've lost my ground and I can't find myself
Lost among the pieces that all fell before me
Among the people who all gave up on me

Let Go (For A While)

On an angled street with a grit gray place
Gravel that she walks on tried to slow her pace
Second thoughts try to chase her away
But with nowhere to go she had no choice but to stay

She walked through the door and the colors changed
A handful of people without any names
Sat by the piano with an awkward smile
And the notes she played kept her company for a while

If she could just sit alone for a while
Yet nothing happens when you just sit alone for a while
For a while...

But then her music played and everybody was dancing
With their hands in the air she finally took her chances
All of her dreams in the words that she sang
Saying let go she could do anything

A friendly glance was all it took
And the music stirred in just one look
People she knew cause' they were all the same
Their dreams in their hands and their worlds to changce

They couldn't fade away for a while
Nothing changes if they just fade away for a while
For a while…

And then their music played and everybody was dancing
With their hands in the air she finally took her chances
All of their dreams in the words that she sang
Saying let go they could do anything

All the people she once met, put her shine to shame
With her hands in her pockets she'd never do the same
So much pressure made her voice run away
But then the music played...

But then her music played and everybody was dancing
With their hands in the air they finally took some chances
All of their dreams in the words that she sang
Saying let go you could do anything
But then the music played
But then the music played
Everybody was dancing
Everybody took chances

Temporary (lyrics)

Tell me what to make of something else
Tell me what to make
I won't pretend to be someone else
I won't pretend to be fake

They tell me imagination is temporary
But I think intelligence is nonsense
They try to make me everything I crave to be
But I crave to be everything

I cannot lie here
I cannot stare at my ceiling
I cannot bear
I cannot bear these chains

Tell me what to be if not someone else
Tell me who do I choose
I am the bigger person in this conversation
Although I will fill your shoes

Lying is easier
Than trying to think of the truth
I speak more naturally from the corners of my fingers
Than with the mouth I use

Try tell me imagination is temporary
Well I think intelligence is nonsense, nonsense
Try to make me be what's temporary
Well I want to be permanent

Slow down with your ambitions
Slow down with your needs
Slow down make sure I'm catching up with you
Because you're what I need

Try tell me imagination is temporary
Well I think intelligence is nonsense, nonsense
Try to make me someone else, someone else's
Try to make me what I can't be

Imagination is...Not temporary
Intelligence is...me

Alive (lyrics)

This is where I hang my head
And lose myself again
This is where I said goodbye
So I could feel alive

Couldn't fall fast enough
Couldn't breathe deep enough
I try to take you in
But when it comes to this love
I couldn't make myself think of
You giving in

Girl, don't take a stand
Just take his hand

This is where I hang my head
And lose myself again
This is where I said goodbye
So I could feel alive

Couldn't even move on
Couldn't think of anyone
But me & you
Couldn't quickly get away
Couldn't make myself stay
So I became someone new

Girl, don't take a stand
Just take his hand

This is where I hang my head
And lose myself again
This is where I said goodbye
So I could feel alive

Why is falling so hard?
Can't I try to keep me in?
Why is falling so hard?
It's a game I never win

This is where I hang my head
And lose myself again
This is where I said goodbye
So I could feel alive

This is where I lose myself
But it's worth the price
Hang my head
Take me over
So I'll sleep tonight

With you by my side
With you in my life
Maybe I'll feel...alive

Author (lyrics)

Never closed, never quiet
Never tell the dirty truth
Make a man into a liar
Twist the worst to leave them bruised
So stay away, stay away from me
I'm not ready, not ready to make believe
(Ooooooh)

Hand over your mouth
Shower on to water down
These lies you make your eyes believe
Hand over your mouth
Can we not play this game?
Keep your lips off my name

If letters lost, you'll find them
And tie them into you
I felt sad, you were misguided
But that's a role you choose
So take a step back, take a step back
I'm not falling, falling into
(Oooooh)

Hand over your mouth
Shower on to water down
These lies you make your eyes believe
Hand over your mouth
Can we not play this game?
Keep your lips off my name

Oooh you've spoken such a
Lovely--Story
Oooh you've wrote me
Into--Every
Oooh you've spoken such a
Lovely--Story
Oooh you've wrote me
Into--Every
Oooh you've spoken such a
Lovely--Story
Oooh you've wrote me
Into--Every

Hand over your mouth
These lies you make your eyes believe
Can we not play this game?
Can we not play these games?
Can you not play these games?
Keep your lips off my name!

Why do I love you (lyrics)

Pink slips fall from the sky
You're always on my mind
And I--feel like I can't escape anything
These days
I try to write myself away
I try to lock myself inside
You're always on my mind

I wish I didn't dream
Cause it seems it's the only way you have
A hold of me (Don't get over me)

I wish I didn't feel
This way for you
I know if I dream it
Then it is probably true

Why can't I forget you
Why can't I control you
Why can't I be yours
And you let me own you?

Why do you speak back to me?
Why do you fight for me?
And why, oh why?
Why do you love me?

You have this funny way of
Talking in squares
I wish I was always there
To hear you
You're the only one who makes sense
Without seeming to make sense
You're the only one
I wish that I could think of like this
My head it spins around
And I fall into you
My heart it wins
Only when I sleep you know


Why can't I write these things?
About things that make sense?
Why can't I speak in circles?
Instead of your non-sense
Why do
I love to hear your voice
Why do
I love to be around you
Why do
I love to see your face
Why do I need to feel you here
Right here

I should've known you were no good for me
The second I thought you were good for me
I should've known that this would wind up bad
The second I knew that you could never hurt me
You'd never hurt me

Why can't I control you?
Why can't I just own you?
Why can't I leave you behind?
Why can't I make sense of
Everything that I've kept up
That I've kept up

Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do I love you?

Pink slips fall from the sky
I ask myself why does everything
Have to become a sign?

Why can't I control you?
Why won't you let me own you?
Why do I think myself to death?

Why do I want to know you?
You know you're the only one who
Seems to own my mind

I could say heart, but I'd be lying
My heart's not in charge, not this time

You're not allowed to
Cloud everything I do

Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Why do you love me?
Oh, why?

You tell me I'm beautiful
You make it clear, you know
You make me smile and you try
You don't like the simple things
You speak for hours rambling
And most people can't stand by

Why do I love you?
Why can you control me to?
Why can you own me like you do?
Why do I love you?
Why is everything you
Forged into replay
In my mind

Let me clarify
You haven't won this time
Why do I love you?
I don't know
I will never back down
I won't let you know
What I find out
I will keep it pent up
No matter what

I only I know
Only I don't know

Why do I love you?
Maybe it's because...
You love me.

Dining Room Table (lyrics)

Arms crossed
We stare
Across the table
Into thin air
This room's
So cold
With words we spoke
They went so unknown
You say
You hate
The way I grit my teeth
When I make mistakes
I say
You're wrong
Almost all the time
I only play along


Still we write our silly little love notes
In circles
Still we write our songs to keep it under cover
That

Four letters have shifted underneath the bed
These words you hate, but never ever said
I. Want Out. I. Want. Out
Four letters have shifted underneath our bed
Our home's not a home, just a hell instead
I. Want. Out. I. Want. Out.
You're not the only one.

Head low
Keep down
Unless you want them all
To find out
That we're not
So sweet
We've learned to twist
Almost everything
You say
You hate
The way I move my lips
When I speak
I say
You're wrong
Soon enough you'll figure out
That we don't belong

Still we write our silly little love notes
In circles
Still we write our songs to keep it under cover
That

Four letters have shifted underneath the bed
These words you hate, but never ever said
I. Want Out. I. Want. Out
Four letters have shifted underneath our bed
Our home's not a home, just a hell instead
I. Want. Out. I. Want. Out.
You're not the only one.

Oooh, Who knew?
That faces fall faster
Than I fell in love with you
Oooh, Who said?
That you and I...
Were perfect.

Still we write our silly love songs to keep it under cover that

Four letters have shifted underneath the bed
These words you hate, but never ever said
I. Want Out. I. Want. Out
Four letters have shifted underneath our bed
Our home's not a home, just a hell instead
I. Want. Out. I. Want. Out.
(Hit)
You're not the only one.

You don't care (lyrics)

Yes, you may use me again
The blood you need, spills from my hands
I'm in an aching need
And I--Wanted a friend
But what lies underneath
Won't matter, matter again

Don't lie to me
And tell me to speak
Don't say you need
To hear me, see me
You don't care, You don't care

Stumbling around a fool
I'd rather fall
I had my secrets too
Now you know them all
You keep me on a leash
When I need a hand
You got a hold of me
I don't understand

Don't lie to me
And tell me to speak
Don't say you need
To hear me, see me
You don't care, You don't care

All my life I've waited for
It to be---over
All my life I've wanted more
But I'm growing older
If I'm tied to you
To you, to you

Don't lie to me
And you need, you need
You want me near
But you don't--
You don't care
You don't care
You don't care
You lied
You don't care

Song I wrote falling asleep

Listen
I'll suit you well
My eyes have grown tired
Of distant veins, our hell
I tried, I fought
But burned, is how I wind up

Lines make my mind tricked again
I see more in than outside of them
I'd lie and say that I feel what you're feeling
But I'm feeling nothing

So here's to another night
On open highs
Of lacked sleep and day dreams at 3 a.m. East time
Here's to the friends who vent
And the one's who care to lie
He's to what keeps me up at night

Light seemed to move
Since the last time
The last time I moved from this spot
And stuck to the table is my lifeline
Stuck to the walls are my thoughts
Lay me down to rest
Oh shut my eyes for me
Lay me down to bed
Oh and if I could sleep

So here's to another night
On open highs
Of lacked sleep and day dreams at 3 a.m. East time
Here's to the friends who vent
And the one's who care to lie
He's to what keeps me up at night

The stars on my ceiling
They occupy my eyes
They moons in my palms
They make me fall apart

I've constantly imagined
What I'd like to see
A dream, oh, awake or asleep

So here's to what's right
And here's to my mind


So here's to another night
On open highs
Of lacked sleep and day dreams at 3 a.m. East time
Here's to the friends who vent
And the one's who care to lie
He's to what keeps me up at night
Oh here's to what keeps me up all night

Easier (lyrics)

It'd be so much easier
If I could blame you
Then I could drop it all
And run...
I'd have a reason
To move my feet
And no one could take you
You'd be all alone
While I move on

I can't make my way home
If what they say is true
Home is where the heart is
But I'm never going back to you

It'd be so much easier
To cry
If you'd left me there
That night
I can't bare the thoughts
That cross my mind
That you can move on with your life

Tell me, tell me
That you're not fine
Tell me, tell me
I'm on your mind
It's really the simple things
That keep me alive
Yeah, tell me, tell me
That you're not fine

It'd be so much easier
If I was sure
Then I could
Make it on my own
I'd have a reason
To push through
And not be forced to
I'm not the girl
That you once owned

It'd be so much easier
To cry
If you'd left me there
That night
I can't bare the thoughts
That cross my mind
That you can move on with your life

Tell me, tell me
That you're not fine
Tell me, tell me
I'm on your mind
It's really the simple things
That keep me alive
Yeah, tell me, tell me
That you're not fine

Whoa, whoa, whoa
I got my heart back
Whoa, whoa, whoa
It's a little cracked
Whoa, whoa, whoa
It's staying right here
Whoa, whoa, whoa
And you will not hear...it sing.


Tell me, tell me
That you're not fine
Tell me, tell me
I'm on your mind
It's really the simple things
That keep me alive
Yeah, tell me, tell me
That you're not fine
That you're not
That you're not
That you're not
That you're not fine

Don't Know What to Do (lyrics)

Can I speak honestly for once?
I don't want to be here
I don't want to shut you out
But I can't be your mirror

I feel myself pull away, tie myself to a wall
I don't want to lose your heart
Though I don't want to win at all

Do what you want
But I can't follow anymore
Do what you want
I won't shadow blindlessly anymore
Do what I want
Well I don't know what to do
All I know is what I want
Is to be far away from you

Smile, I can't say 'can't' can I?
An argument on a lover's lane, not one left to lie

I dug myself an empty hole
Into my side, my un-centered soul
I only guessed you'd ask me once
Though I don't want to be asked at all

Do what you want
But I can't follow anymore
Do what you want
I won't shadow blindlessly anymore
Do what I want
Well I don't know what to do
All I know is what I want
Is to be far away from you

It's not that I don't like you
I bet this makes no sense
But your sunshine's so suffocating
I keep on spewing nonsense
Breathe...Let me breathe
Breathe...Let. Me. Breathe...

Do what you want
But I can't follow anymore
Do what you want
I won't shadow blindlessly anymore
Do what I want
Well I don't know what to do
All I know is what I want
Is to be far away from you
Do what you want
Well I don't know what to do
Breathe...Let me breathe...

Shadow (lyrics)

When you're not around I'm not here
To the world I disappear
Because I need to fall behind
My dark is nothing without your light
Though I too, shine through..Shine through
But it's faded...oh...

So what are you gonna do
When you feel like crying?
You ask, what are you gonna do?
When you feel like that

I say I am not your shadow
So you'll never know, you'll never know
No, I am not your shadow
I only followed, to keep my tears in the dark

Oh, how well can I fit in? 7
When the light I'm made from 6
Isn't hanging--around 6
Oh, should I sink or swim? 6
I'm not so used to solid feet 8
Or solid ground. 4

So what are you gonna do
When you feel like crying?
You ask, what are you gonna do?
When you feel like that

I say I am not your shadow
So you'll never know, you'll never know
No, I am not your shadow
I only followed, to keep my tears in the dark
But when I'm in the dark
I fall apart

So what are you gonna say?
Why you feel like crying?
What are you gonna say?
Why you feel like crying?

Because I am not your shadow
You'll never know, you'll never know
No, I am not your shadow
I only followed, to keep my tears in the dark
But when I'm in the dark
I fall apart
No, I am not your shadow
No, I am not your shadow
I wish I was your shadow
Cause I...
Fall apart

Good Girls (lyrics)

He told her how important it was
For her to be a good girl
So he could love her
A little longer
A little longer
Bite your cheek
A little longer, baby

Good girls don't cry
Good guys need alibis
& Good guys always swear
Good girls are lying

She wanted it, oh she wanted it
She begged for it, oh she begged for it
What a fix, oh what a fix
Another hit--

She bared the pain with gritted teeth
A motivation underneath
So he could leave her
For much longer
For much longer
Farewell monster
For much longer, please

Good girls don't cry
Good guys need alibis
& Good guys always swear
Good girls are lying

She wanted it, oh she wanted it
She begged for it, oh she begged for it
What a fix, oh what a fix
Another hit
She didn't cry, she didn't cry
She's full of lies, why oh why?
My poor fix, Another hit.

Always inside, she's full of lies
Take it out, maybe she'll shut her mouth
Teach a lesson, lovin's the best thing
When a good girl wants out

Tell me:
She wanted it, oh she wanted it
She begged for it, oh she begged for it
What a fix, oh what a fix
Another hit
She didn't cry, she didn't cry
She's full of lies, why oh why?
My poor fix, Another hit.

& Good guys always swear
Good girls lie.

Lullaby (lyrics)

I hope you found somewhere to hide
Safe in sound, out of your mind
Even inside
Can't escape my eyes
And my: La, la, la's

Have you numbed your throat?
Won't sing along to a single note
Even at night
When the moon has faded from the skies
You'll hear my--

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
I hope you can sleep tonight
Remembering my lullaby
And all my: La, la, la's

You've gotten so scared of the dark
Keep hearing me over the beat of your heart
All in due time
I'll let you lose your fright
Forget my: La, la, la's

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
I hope you can sleep tonight
Remembering my lullaby
And all my: La, la, la's

Goodnight
Sleep tight
Don't forget to get me
Out of your mind

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
You won't sleep tonight
Not with me inside your mind
And all my: La, la, la's
La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
La...la...la...

Jamie (lyrics)

Jamie wants what Jamie wants
No matter who gets hurt
Jamie wants what Jamie wants
No matter who gets burned
Oh, she has a way of getting her way
Oh, she batts her eyes and makes sure I pay
Makes sure I pay

If you don't
Play her games
She's bound to make you
Pay.

Jamie wants what Jamie wants
No price is high--enough
Jamie wants what Jamie wants
But Jamie never wants love
Oh, she has her ways of getting inside
Oh, she licks her lips before every lie

If you don't
Play her games
She's bound to make you
Pay
If you get
In her way
She'll get you to
Stay

Some say she's lost inside
I know the truth
Some say she's lost inside
I think she likes the view

Jamie wants what Jamie wants
No matter who she hurts
Jamie wants what Jamie wants
It's what she deserves

If you don't
Play her games
She's bound to make you
Pay
If you don't
Play her games
Don't get in...her...
Way...

You and I (lyrics)

Give me a second to breathe
Haven't even open my lips
But you're begging me, please oh

If I was worth a shot then why?
Down on your knees
What I need's for you to cry, oh

I can't change
What you done
I can't change
So it won't be enough

What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
But you couldn't wait
What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
So you gave what I wanted...away

I need to sit and relax
I take it back, you say
Well take it all back, whoa

Oh, You and I wasn't enough
But when it comes down to the facts
That's just love, huh

I can't change
What you done
I can't change
So I won't be enough

What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
But you couldn't wait
What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
So you gave what I wanted...away

Give me a second...to breathe

What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
But you couldn't wait
What you wanted might've taken a long time
A long time
So you gave what I wanted...away

Oh. You and I. Wasn't. Enough...

Monsters (lyrics)

They're always testing you
As they should be
They're always making you move
The reason you're losing control
The blame can't fall on you

Now that you know your lines
You can say all those lies
Now that you know your lines
You can say all your lies

You're in denial,
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
Those in denial, sing
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
So when blame floats on to me
And I've got no words, I sing
'Look at the monster inside...my...head'

They're so convincing,
It's not your fault
They're ideas make you numb
The reason you had to do a bad thing
There's no way it was fun

Now that you know your lines
You can say all those lies
Now that you know your lines
You can say all your lies

You're in denial,
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
Those in denial, sing
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
So when blame floats on to me
And I've got no words, I sing
'Look at the monster inside...my...head'

I've done nothing wrong
I've done nothing
I've done--

You're in denial,
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
Those in denial, sing
'Look at the monsters inside my head'
So when blame floats on to me
And I've got no words, I will sing
'Look at the monster inside...my...head'
Monsters keep me near
The monster's me...right...here...

Severed (lyrics)

It's time to cut the cord
I can breathe just fine on my own
I've done it before I believe
Before I was you and you were me
I know you're sick of it too
I know you'd hate me, if I were you

I'm so tired of sitting when you're sleeping
So tired not to be living while you're dreaming

Forgive and forget
I'll have no regret
If we end this now
If we end this now
It's the only way
I know how to get out
Let me loose, let me shout
I have nowhere to go from here
But I need out

I don't feel justified anymore
A spark dismissed with the opened door
I used to light my own way
But now I only function when you're in my day
I know you want to be free too
I would've run away already, if I were you

Forgive and forget
I'll have no regret
If we end this now
If we end this now
It's the only way
I know how to get out
Let me loose, let me shout
I have nowhere to go from here
But I need out
I need out

There's always that 'what if'
It could be too late
But I'd rather be free
Than have this permanent slate
I was fine on my own,
Not great but fine
The life I loved
It was all mine

Forgive and forget
I'll have no regret
If we end this now
If we end this now
It's the only way
I know how to get out
Let me loose, let me shout
I have nowhere to go from here
But I need out
I need out
If we end this now
If we end this now
I know how to get out

Sour (lyrics)

Words with an after taste
I've made a bed, now I shall lay
Lay my head down on my mess
And pray to God, that I'm not blessed

Excuse me, excuse me
Why should I run?
When wrecking lives is so much fun?

I hope you're still hurting
I hope you're still on the ground
I hope my eyes have burned
And made flames surround--you

Blood on my hands stain
I've done the crime, now I shall pay
Payback every thing you gave
And savor it until you're slayed

Amuse me, amuse me
Why can't I stay?
I want my revenge, time to play

I hope you're still hurting
I hope you're still on the ground
I hope my eyes have burned
And made flames surround--you
You've never played fair
So baby why should I?
You shouldn't act so sour
It's an eye for an eye

Tell me
How am I wrong?
Tell me
You say you've known all along
I've known...all along

I hope you're still hurting
I hope you're still burning--

I hope you're still hurting
I hope you're still on the ground
I hope my eyes have burned
And made flames surround--you
You've never played fair
So baby why should I?
You shouldn't act so sour
It's an eye for an eye
Yeah.

Say Anything (lyrics)

Take an inch, you'll take a mile
We'll make something out of nothing
Lead me on and make me smile
I'll make something out of nothing
I'm a fool
Played your rules
I'm your fool
Fooled by you

Say Anything, just say it in my direction
Say Anything, add fire to my infection
Was it all just a dream?
Time you wasted on me?
Made something out of nothing.

Two beats forward, my heart attacks
Making something out of nothing
Kiss my lips, you don't hold back
But it's nothing, nothing
I'm your fool
Lost in you
I'm a fool
Broke in two

Say Anything, just say it in my direction
Say Anything, add fire to my infection
Was it all just a dream?
Time you wasted on me?
Made something out of nothing.

Take an inch, I'll take a mile
Say Anything
I'll make something out of nothing

Say Anything, just say it in my direction
Say Anything, add fire to my infection
Say Anything, Say Anything,
Say Anything, Say Anything
Made something out of nothing...

Hearts (lyrics)

Hearts were made to be opened,
Again and again
Hearts were made to be broken
I'll examine once it's stopped bleeding
I'll examine--it's stopped beating

(I can't find the key
To this lock carved inside of me
I can't find the key
Why do I need this)

There's a mystery
And I don't know who committed the crime
Someone stole my heart
The second I closed my eyes
I wish I knew why
Hearts don't keep you alive
I wish I knew why
But they beat beat beat
Til you want to die

Hearts were made to be torn up
Again and Again
Heart were made to be worn out
I'll examine, let me cut it open
I'll examine--It's last moments

There's a mystery
And I don't know who committed the crime
Someone stole my heart
The second I closed my eyes
I wish I knew why
Hearts don't keep you alive
I wish I knew why
But they beat beat beat
Til you want to die

Six feet under I thought...
Six feet under I thought...
This...would...stop...

There's a mystery
And I don't know who committed the crime
Someone stole my heart
The second I closed my eyes
I wish I knew why
Hearts don't keep you alive
I wish I knew why
But they beat beat beat
Til you want to die

Taking Sides

You chose your side
Get used to being on your own
I'm moving on, I'll be safer all alone
You're a loaded gun
So shoot me to the ground
Before I go
You wanna end on your terms
Well take the blow

You chose your side
Get used to being on your own
I'm moving on, I'll be safer all alone
You're a loaded gun
So shoot me to the ground
Before I go
You wanna end on your terms
Well take the blow

There's nothing lying underneath
What I say is always what I mean
I don't want to play the villain
All I say is what I'm feeling
And today I'm feeling--

What is that heat crawling under my skin
Ripping me apart from within
Making me insane, I know you're to blame
Who do you think you are?
Trying to tear me apart
With my own words.

Our eyes were made of fool's gold
Took so long but now I know
Our hands were never full of anything
My lips only speak words
Taught myself the meaning of
My ears never hear what they want...

Informal Apologies

I don't want to be that disappointing thought
That wakes you up in restless sweats at three in the morning
That one mishap you're used to hating
Wishing that I could be gone for much more than I disappear for

Now I could make a simple statement saying that "I'm sorry"
But sorry seems to never do
Apologies are only accepted in paper form
Sign at the x and let's pretend this never happened

Sometimes you jump into the flames
Burn yourself down, but not in vain
Make your mistakes
But don't regret
You lived your life to the fullest

Cause you're the one who dances on the sun
Yeah, you're the one who always finds the pieces
You're the one who never loses faith
Because inside, you have something to believe in

I've worn out my welcome and I know you're tired of fixing me
I'm tired of begging, believe me
I have no idea how to feel anymore
My mind is more tangled than my tongue
My eyes blinded by the sun
What I want, even father away
And yet still I stay
Staring off in the distance
Since when did I become
A star-gazer...

He came and stole it
I let him take it all
I had a whole body
I let him take it all
The center of myself
I let him take it all
The isolation of my core
He wanted that and then some more

The Box

Sickening how it runs through your veins
In a cramped space
Everyone knows your name
You, yourself and I
It's left you in a bind

Stay right here, you'll fit in fine
It's for the best
Your isolation
Because you know what's inside

Out there's so unfamiliar
The world is too peculiar
You know what lies inside
It'd never lie.

Reach a Hand (lyrics)

This heart's on display again
A stupid little case again
It's stopping for good once again
You say you want to hear it beat

These eyes are going blind again
A sight unseen again
It's going black for good again
You say you want them to see

But you never reach out over
Come on, reach out over here
You hear what you want to hear
The begging and fragile plees
Come on, reach out over here
Reach a hand out over here

Those ears have shut themselves again
A sound settled gone again
It shuts songs off for good again
You say you want to sing to me

Well sing to me, and breathe in me
Grab my heart and make it beat
All for my blind eyes to see

You'll never reach out over
Come on, reach out over here
You hear what you want to hear
The begging and fragile plees
Come on, reach out over here
Reach a hand out over here

You lie so much
Think I believe

I know

You'll never reach out over
Come on, reach out over here
You hear what you want to hear
The begging and fragile plees
Come on, reach out over here
Reach a hand out over here
Reach a hand out over here
Grab my heart and make it beat.

Untitled (NO NAME GRR)

I'm not tongue tied, but my insides
Are lining up for the show
Now you've heard my secret words
Lips are shut until you go

Don't make me go insane
Don't make me wait

Because the worse part is the wait
When you're stuck in the hands of fate
I don't know, if I want you to stay--or go

The silence numbs, my ears run
Every word over and over
I can't escape, what can't be changed
I regret letting you know

Don't make me go insane
Don't make me wait

Because the worse part is the wait
When you're stuck in the hands of fate
I don't know, if I want you to stay--or go
...or go...

The air's choking me
I'm finding hard to breathe
I can't escape, what can't be changed
I let you into everything
Was what I did all in vain!?

My tongue's not tied, but my insides

Because the worse part is the wait
When you're stuck in the hands of fate
I don't know, if I want you to stay--or go
Because the worse part is the wait
When you're stuck in the hands of fate
I don't know, if I want you to stay or go!

Awake (lyrics)

I'm so frustrated with myself
I'll never be perfect
So why the hell am I trying?
I can't help who I am
Or how I speak
And I can never help how I think

Late at night the shadows shine into my brain
Late at night and early mornings make me feel insane
Late at night I try to pull myself away
I cry more in my sleep than I do when I'm awake
Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache

Something's gotta break me out of this shell
The more I'm quiet, the more I yell at myself
I'll never give up
So why the hell do I keep saying that?
I can't help how much it hurt
I don't even wanna take it back

Late at night the shadows shine into my brain
Late at night and early mornings make me feel insane
Late at night I try to pull myself away
I cry more in my sleep than I do when I'm awake
Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache

Who do I think I am?
Acting like the world gives a damn
Notice me, notice me, but please don't notice me
Won't you please, won't you please take--

Late at night I try to pull myself away
I cry more in my sleep than I do when I'm awake...

Late at night the shadows shine into my brain (Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache)
Late at night and early mornings make me feel insane (Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache)
Late at night I try to pull myself away (Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache)
I cry more in my sleep than I do when I'm awake (Awake--a-a-a-a-a-ache)

I cry more in my sleep as I waste the day awake.

Fragile Girl (lyrics)

I may wear a mask, but I'd never hide it all
Your anger seeps through me
Slivering up my walls
I may look both ways, but I'd never second glance
You play it safe and hate the way I make my advances

Fragile, fragile girl
It's not my fault you're broken
Never pushed you down, around
Though you claim I've stolen
All you ever wanted, all you ever tried for
Fragile, fragile girl
You never try, you always want some more

I may bite my tongue, but I'd never let it bleed
Your jealousy runs through your vein
So visible a green
I may take two steps sideways, but It'd never avoid your blows
You play in shadows and hate the way I know

Fragile, fragile girl
It's not my fault you're broken
Never pushed you down, around
Though you claim I've stolen
All you ever wanted, all you ever tried for
Fragile, fragile girl
You never try, you always want some more

Are your hands in front of you anymore?
Never reaching, used bleeding, always needing
Fragile, fragile girl

Fragile, fragile girl
It's not my fault you're broken
Never pushed you down, around
Though you claim I've stolen
All you ever wanted, all you ever tried for
Fragile, fragile girl
You never try, you always want some more

I don't help people hide bodies {Lyrics}

Under the ground you're hiding
This situation's still dividing the tides
You know this time you're biding
Covering up your tracks with filthy lies
Dirt trailed over all your masking
One fine question's all I'm asking
Where'd you find the time?

I'm not responsible for you anymore
I'm not your scape-goat anymore

Found yourself a shovel dig a grave
Hollow out the ground in your own name
Find an easy way out
Frozen lips don't speak out
But don't expect my hands--To get dirty!

There is no silver lining
Only red is lighting up your eyes
You let the demons take you in
Burying your burdens with your old disguise
Creeping over makes you wonder
Taking over til they're under
Where'd you hide your lies?

I'm not responsible for you anymore
I'm not your one-call anymore

Found yourself a shovel dig a grave
Hollow out the ground in your own name
Find an easy way out
Frozen lips don't speak out
But don't expect my hands--To get dirty

You're no good all on your own
Mastermind, but too well known
You're no good all on your own
Hiding in between their bones

Found yourself a shovel--

Found yourself a shovel dig a grave
Hollow out the ground in your own name
Find an easy way out
Frozen lips don't speak out
But don't expect my hands--(I found myself a shovel)
To get--(Dug a grave)
But don't expect my hands to get dirty!

Violets {Lyrics}

Fading like a lost little light in the background
Bleach high girls die down, going black now
Needing is the reason that I ache unclearly
Can't you hear me?
Serial causes lay me low on my back now
Haunting innuendos take you down down down
Needing is the reason that I ache unclearly
Can't you hear me?

Sink into my sirens
And wash away my violets
Let innocence have violence
And wash away my violets

Holding your breath, silhouettes fill my head now
All the other girls, you've taken down down down
Aching is the reason that I need you near me
Can you heal me?
Just a little lie in my ear, and I'm trapped now
Everything lets you get me here on the ground
Aching is the reason that I need you near me
Can you heal me?

Sink into my sirens
And wash away my violets
Let innocence have violence
And wash away my violets

Fading like a...
In my head now...
Holding my breath...
In the background...
Can't you heal me?

Sink into my sirens
And wash away my violets
Let innocence have violence
And wash away my violets
Let innocence and sirens blend
ANd wash away my violets

Jumper {Chorus/Bridge}

I saw you standing on the edge
I dared that I could beat you to the ground
Thought you wouldn't have the guts
Now I know you did, you spit it out
Told me to fend for myself
Find my own ledge
Well I took it to my heart
And now I'm closer to the edge

Maybe when my heart stops beating
I'll give this a try
I can't look down, I shut my eyes
Maybe when my heart stops beating
I'll give this a try
I don't look down, I'll break in time

I saw you standing on the edge
I dared that I could beat you to the ground
Thought you wouldn't have the guts
Now I know you did, you spit it out
Told me to fend for myself
Find my own ledge
Well I took it to my heart
And now I'm closer to the edge
And now I'm closer to the---

Make a Move {Verse/Chorus}

Pace back
Play forth
I want you and nothing more
Stay still
And sell short
I wish I could reach out forward

You're there
You're aching
I'm here
I'm waiting

My tongue's all tied
With the words I think
You're the braver one
But I'm the one who sees
The lines
I can't make it across this time
Maybe this time, this time you'll see
You should've made a move for me

Safety {Lyrics}

Safety in your arms
Safety, disable my charms
Lead me into harm
Because danger is not alarming
Safety in the least safe places
I remember half those faces
Safety in the least safe places
Safety where your face is

Why do I keep coming back to you for more?
Why do I keep coming back to you for more?

I can't escape
I can't escape your
I need your, your hell

Safety is only code for
Not making wrong choices
Safety is only code for
Ignoring your voice in...my head
Safety in the least safe places
I forgot half those faces
Safety in the least safe places
Safety where your face is

Why do I keep coming back to you for more?
Why do I keep coming back to you for more?

I can't escape
I can't escape your
I need your, your hell

Safety is where your face is
Safety is code for places
I shouldn't be going
I shouldn't be going
Why do I keep coming back for more?

Why do I keep coming back to you for more?
Why do I keep coming back to you for more?

I can't escape
I can't escape your
I need your, your hell
I need your, I need your
I need your, I need your
I should be...going...

Good {Lyrics}

I've never had a problem
Playing with my demons
I've always minded better
With bad thoughts in mind
I make the time to take their time
The way they've destroyed and made mine

I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on myself
When I never really should
I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on my lies
So I never hear the truth

I've never had a heart to heart
With a Guardian
I lay my head on a bible
Hoping he'll take me in
I found a way to count my ways out
The way he's made it clear,
(He'll never listen if I just shout)

I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on myself
When I never really should
I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on my lies
So I never hear the truth

Nothing grows out of nothing
So I found my place
To sit here and say nothing
For the rest of my days
I might as well just be nothing
It's the perfect role to play
I might as well just be nothing
I might as well just be--

I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on myself
When I never really should
I just want to be good
And let myself through
But I focus on my lies
So I never hear the truth
And I just want to be good
Let myself through
I just wanna be good
So I never hear the truth
I just wanna be good
I just wanna be good

Shut (lyrics)

With eyes wide shut I never mind (I never mind)
What anyone shows to me
I lock my lips before they quit and try
To unravel every broken word and fragile herd
Of letters tied upon my tongue
Broken me and everything
You can't hold on to

Tell me now
Is there a way out?
Cause I can't seem to shut my mouth
Shut, shut, shut
When teeth grit and grind
I find it fit to stay in line
And keep my mouth
Shut, shut, shut.

To say I've never told a lie (let it linger)
Would be a burning sentiment
I track my pulse before I cross my fingers
And trace the air with all my petty pleasings, untried teasings
For people standing Idly by
It's Broken me to every piece
You can't hold on to

Tell me now
Is there a way out?
Cause I can't seem to shut my mouth
Shut, shut, shut
When teeth grit and grind
I find it fit to stay in line
And keep my mouth
Shut, shut, shut.

Tell me now
Is there a way out?
Tell me now
I need a way out.
I can't fall in line, I can't fall in line!

Tell me now
Is there a way out?
Cause I can't seem to shut my mouth
Shut, shut, shut
When teeth grit and grind
I find it fit to stay in line
And keep my mouth
Shut, shut, shut
Shut, shut, shut
Shut, shut, shut my--
Mouth!

He's Done (lyrics)

He's only going to get his heart broken
And it's killing me

It's hard to speak up about this
You've barely even shared a kiss
But I see it coming
I know her, honey
She's the downfall of man
The Helena of the land
I see it coming
You should start running

No, he won't listen to my words
No, he's trapped in her curves
He's only going to get his heart broken
And it's killing me
She's a bittersweet poison
I guess you want that release

You're lust is a fatal cause
You're a must for her to make fall
But you could do it now
I know her, honey
You could leave, get running
She won't blink or bat an eye
You think she loves you
But you're just a guy

No, he won't listen to my words
No, he's trapped in her curves
He's only going to get his heart broken
And it's killing me
She's a bittersweet poison
I guess you want that release

I'd never steal you away from what you wanted
I'd keep you safe if you want to be guarded
But you can't walk away, walk away, walk away
Can't walk away, walk away, walk away from her
It's gonna burn...

No, he won't listen to my words
No, he's trapped inside her curves
He's only going to get his heart broken
And it's killing me
She's a bittersweet poison
I guess you wanted that release

Sake Of Yourself{lyrics}

Forsake yourself
Into the sound of the settled
And take yourself
Into the heat of our matters
Forsake yourself
Into what makes you settle
And take yourself
Into the heart of whatever you-

You never could handle your own thoughts
You never would put a handle on it

Hold onto the walls
Because the room keeps on spinning
Have your feet planted
Because you'll get swept up, not free
For once do something for yourself
Forsake the others, you need your help

Forsake yourself
Onto the bars that cross my heart
And take yourself
Onto whatever high you want you-

You always could cry on your cues
You always could turn your scratch into a bruise

Hold onto the walls
Because the room keeps on spinning
Have your feet planted
Because you'll get swept up, not free
For once do something for yourself
Forsake the others, you need your help

Lost again
Never find it
Lost again
Never found it
Lost again
Never mind it
Forsake yourself and take yourself
Because you're lost again...lost again

Hold onto the walls
Because the room keeps on spinning
Have your feet planted
Because you'll get swept up, not free
For once do something for yourself
Forsake the others, you need your help
Oh kid, you need some help

Patience is a Virtue {Lyrics}

On your command
Let's not obey
You gotta give me some warning
If you want it done right
You know you wanna do it right
But you'd rather do it right now

Impatience is key
Headache of my urgency
And I hide while you sleep
Just to make you play a game with me
Just to make you play that game with me

Oh your plans
You make no time
You gotta lay it out beforehand
If you want me gone right
You know you want me gone tonight
But you'd rather waste your time

Impatience is key
Headache of my urgency
And I hide while you sleep
Just to make you play a game with me
Just to make you play that game with me

Make your move
I'll disobey
Make your move
To my dismay
I know you want me done right
I know you want me gone right

Impatience is key
Headache of my urgency
And I hide while you sleep
Just to make you play a game with me
Just to make you play that game with me
Impatience is key
I can't stand your urgency
And I'll hide while you sleep
Just so you won't play games with me
Just so you won't play that game with me

Circumstance

Pick your battles
Infatuation or motivation
I choose my lies over my salvation
Carve your lifelines
Out of my starvation
For love is not in this situation

I lied, I lied
I'm not yet better

Have you seen my handle on this circumstance?
Have you seen my helplessness? Don't give me a chance
Don't come any closer, I've got nothing left
Don't come any closer, you never wanted this
You never wanted this

Chose your sides
Cause' I've chosen mine
Choose my lies, my life's on the line
And I hope for the best
With my tongue tied
For I cannot fight this time

You lied, You lied
And I'm no better

Have you seen my handle on this circumstance?
Have you seen my helplessness? Don't give me a chance
Don't come any closer, I've got nothing left
Don't come any closer, you never wanted this
You never wanted this

Crowded, over crowded
Here in my head
Not allowed in
I can't choose
Lose or lose
Crowded, over crowded
Here in my head...
Here you are...
Here in my head

Have you seen my handle on this circumstance?
Have you seen my helplessness? Don't give me a chance
Don't come any closer, I've got nothing left
Don't come any closer, you never wanted this
You never wanted this
You never wanted this
You never wanted this

This Time {Lyrics}

This time, this time
It's gonna be different
I've done just fine
I've done just--

You think your dreams are bigger than mine, I'm not sold
I knew you left me behind cause I wasn't ready to play the role
If you had patience, good things were waiting to go

But you, you chose to walk alone

This time, this time
It's gonna be different
This time, that time
I've crossed the line
And you'll be shown
I'm not the victim
Yeah, on my own
I've done just fine
I've done just--

You think I've wasted all my time staring into my soul
I knew before I started, I had a long way to go
If you tried to understand we could've stood and shown

Yet you, you chose to walk alone

This time, this time
It's gonna be different
This time, that time
I've crossed the line
And you'll be shown
I'm not the victim
Yeah, on my own
I've done just fine
I've done just--

Just why did you think
I'd give up?
And why do you think
You're so tough?
I've fought my way to get here
There's no turning back
This time...this time...!

This time, this time
It's gonna be different
This time, that time
I've crossed the line
And you'll be shown
I'm not the victim
Yeah, on my own
I've done just fine
I've done just fine

Safe {Lyrics}

I see it in your eyes
You prepare
For all the sinking skies
To take you in
I see it in your eyes
You swear, you're not scared
But know that I've been there
This isn't just thinking

Reaching for the rain
Arms outstretched to the pain

I won't leave you alone
I won't leave you alone
When storms are coming
And people are running away
I won't call that place home
Call that place home
I may be far away
But you are safe

It's written on your face
You stumble
Forgetting what you've faced
Already gone!
It's written on your face
You swear, you're nothing(nothing)
But know why you're here now
To give us some meaning

Head up to the clouds
No time for looking down

I won't leave you alone
I won't leave you alone
When storms are coming
And people are running away
I won't call that place home
Call that place home
I may be far away
But you are safe

Reaching for the rain
Arms outstretched to pain
Head up to the clouds
No time for looking down(Don't look down!)

I won't leave you alone
I won't leave you alone (Don't look down)
When storms are coming
And people are running away
I won't call that place home
Call that place home
I may be far away
But you are safe (Don't look down!)
You are safe...

Answers That Sink Into Your Skin {Lyrics}

You take it
You break it
You build it
Destroy it
You want it
You steal it
You get it
Ignore it
Hiding right under your skin where you need it
Hiding right under your skin, why you bleeding?

Tell me how you figured it out
Tell me how you figured them out
Everything has a reason behind it
Everyone's worth pleasing in my head
Everything has a reason behind it
But you won't--tell me how

You say it
You act it
You see it
Become it
You learned it
You know it
You got it
Adore it
Creeping in into your skin where you want it
Creeping in into your skin, now you've done it.

Tell me how you figured it out
Tell me how you figured them out
Everything has a reason behind it
Everyone's worth pleasing in my head
Everything has a reason behind it
But you won't--tell me how

You want it bad
You want it bad
You went through every measure
You need it bad
You need it bad
You went through every measure
You need it, you plead it, you want it, you beat it
You break it, You bought it, You steal it, you sought it
You break it, You bought it, You steal it, you sought it
You break it, You bought it, You steal it, you sought it
You break it, You bought it, You steal it, you sought it

Tell me how you figured it out
Tell me how you--
Tell me how you figured me out!
You break it, You bought it, You steal it if you want it
You break it, you bought it {Everything has a reason behind it}
You break it, You bought it, You steal it, you sought it
But you never Tell me

Insomnia (lyrics)

Late hours, I find myself growing old.
Through powers, unknown, I think they're getting me cold.(Alone)
My heart it shadows every waking beat I've made
My eyes they narrow at the thought of being awake
Late hours, you find yourself growing...oh alone.

But when alone is only in your mind
And nothing passes but the light and time
Those clawing thoughts they never seem to fade
Late hours only turn to early days

Late hours, I think of all that's passed and words untold
I never, thought that I'd sink in and let my soul be sold
Every night ends the same with tears upon my mattress
Every night brings more pain for hearts that keep old habits
Late hours, I find myself growing...all alone.

But when alone is only in your mind
And nothing passes but the light and time
Those clawing thoughts they never seem to fade
Late hours only turn to early days

And I oh I
I cannot fall asleep
From my from my
My thoughts I choose to keep
Me company
In my misery
Late hours, they always take over me

But when alone is only in your mind
And nothing passes but the light and time
Those clawing thoughts they never seem to fade
Late hours only turn to early days
Late hours always take over me.

What I don't remember (lyrics)

Make a smile with eyes shut wildly
I daze over and over trying to form
Images of days I never saw but have been shown
Make it last in my brain tonight
I couldn't explain it if I tried
Pictures mean nothing without the memory

For her arms, they reached out once to me
But no, I don't believe, I don't believe

What I don't remember kills me
What I won't see brings no relief
What I don't remember kills me
What I'll never know will rest at ease

Many miles traveled since then and distances (distanced us)
But wasn't there anything left for me
No, just talk of what was, what I never--
Make it last, make it last in my brain tonight
A thousand words are not at my side
And I've got not a thing, not a memory

For her arms, they reached out once to me
But no, I don't believe, I don't believe

What I don't remember kills me
What I won't see brings no relief
What I don't remember kills me
What I'll never know will rest at ease

They can tell me over again
How I was there and life's just not fair
But I know my mind and how it beckons
It says nothing's there, it says nothing's there
I shouldn't worry over what never happened apparently
But I know...they say...I feel...
Like it did...

For her arms, they reached out once to me
But no--no I believe, I believe!

What I don't remember kills me
What I won't see brings no relief
What I don't remember kills me
What I'll never know will rest
What I don't remember kills me
What I won't see brings no relief
What I don't remember kills me
What I'll never know will rest
Rest in Peace...Rest in Peace...Rest...In Peace

I Can (No Girl is Better) {Lyrics}

I can make you smile I swear I can
I can make you smile I swear I can
Just because I haven't been able
To cause one to form on my own face
Doesn't mean I'm that easily erased from yours

I can, I can
Cause you to feel this pleasure
I can, I know can
No one will do it better

I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl like me
I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl who takes you
Lower...Lower...Lower......Higher...

I can make you mine I swear I can
I can make you mine I swear I can
If you think I can't cause I haven't
You're logic is full of mistakes
Doesn't mean I can't if I try to be...yours

I can, I can
Make you give into pleasure
I can, I know can
No girl will do it better

I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl like me
I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl who takes you
Lower...Lower...Lower.....Higher...

I can, I can
I can, I can
I can, I will
I will--You'll never...You'll never--

I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl like me
I don't know if you ever will
Find another girl who takes you
Lower...Lower...Higher...Higher!
I can. I can. Take you higher.
I can. I can. No girl is better.

Answers that sink into your skin (lyrics)

Well I I I I
Well I I I I

You, you claim, you wanna sit and waste a little time
Well I, I cannot afford to waste a bit of mine
You're begging me down on your knees
To pick and choose and people please
But I, I don't think you're gonna like my answer

Wake up oh wake up
And start to make your own reality
I'm not owned, you're not my only
Stop making me out to be
Someone
Who's out on an empty line
In the end I'm gonna choose between you and I
And...
Well I I I I
Well I I I I



Wake up oh wake up
And start to make your own reality
I'm not owned, you're not my only
Stop making me out to be
Someone
Who's out on an empty line
In the end I'm gonna choose between you and I
And...
Well I I I I
Well I I I I



Wake up oh wake up
And start to make your own reality
I'm not owned, you're not my only
Stop making me out to be
Someone
Who's out on an empty line
In the end I'm gonna choose between you and I
And...
Well I I I I
Well I I I I
Well I, Well I
Choose me (yeah)
Well I, Well I
Choose me.

What if? (Poem)

I'm from Brooklyn
Brooklyn...
We go hard, yeah yeah yeah
We go...........
Nowhere.

I'm from Brooklyn
But I could've moved to Staten Island

Staten Island
We go...?
Shopping?
Ha, it's sad but true.

Yet there's more to it than that.
There's more to it than shopping
There's more to it than rich girls
There's more to it than guido boys

There's...music.
Music that makes me.
Music that fills my soul and takes over my fingers
Music that can't be described through the sounds it makes
But the feeling it stirs
That's Staten Island.

I could've moved to Staten Island.

I always wonder though
How life would be if I was not
FROM Brooklyn anymore
Brooklyn
Where I have to stay inside
Brooklyn where I need to triple lock my doors
Brooklyn where if I am out passed nine, the cops should be ready for a phone call
Brooklyn that place where I am hidden
Brooklyn...Where I am no one

You want friends here? I'm sure you'll find them if you're yourself.
But me, I could never be MY-Self. Because myself does not go hard.
And I can't GO NOWHERE.
I NEED to GO
To Staten Island.

Staten Island
Where I learn to sing
Where I meet my dreams
Where I open up and find myself
Passed a curfew of 9...10...11
Twelve...
Staten Island
Those mazed out roads
Never make me feel like I'm lost
But this damn Brooklyn Grid looks so entangled in it's corners

I'm from Brooklyn
They go hard, yeah, so I've heard
I could've moved to Staten Island
But I go...nowhere...
Yeah, yeah....yeah...

Muscle Memory

Smooth and sudden
You make me come in
Come in, come in
You take my loving
Loving, loving
No voice needed
But I've got you under my skin
Every ounce
I'm gonna take you in.

Put your hand in mine
Place your waist down on the line
Pretend lips are camera lenses
Place me into all your senses



Put your hand in mine
Place your waist down on the line
Pretend lips are camera lenses
Place me into all your senses



Put your hand in mine
Place your waist down on the line
Pretend lips are camera lenses
Place me into all your senses
Put your hand in mine
Place your waist down on the line
Pretend lips are camera lenses
Place me into all your senses
Place me into...

Sing it Back (lyrics)

Have you lost hope
In the world
You try to cry out
But no clouds unfurl
There is nothing
You're not in search of
You want, you need, you deserve
A shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on

When you felt like you've spoken your words
And no one has ever listened,
I'll repeat it back verse for verse,
Not a letter missing
Cause I know what it's like to be
The only one who's listening to me



When you felt like you've spoken your words
And no one has ever listened,
I'll repeat it back verse for verse,
Not a letter missing
Cause I know what it's like to be
The only one who's listening to me



When you felt like you've spoken your words
And no one has ever listened,
I'll repeat it back verse for verse,
Not a letter missing
Cause I know what it's like to be
The only one who's listening to me

Bluntly (lyrics)

This is how it is
Let's not walk around this
You're screwed up
I'm completely nuts
I've got no one better
Your friend's say "You might as well let her"

I can't want you
I won't ever
But we'll be like this forever
Because good enough, is just enough
When you're a heart
In search of love

Here is where it ends, begins
Where back and forth can cease again
You're persistent
I'm non-resistant
I've got no way out
You tell yourself "At least there's no doubt"

I can't want you
I won't ever
But we'll be like this forever
Because good enough, is just enough
When you're a heart
In search of love

You're all I've got
You're all I've got
I'm not what you want
I'm not what you want
You're all I'll take
You're all I'll take
I'm you're mistake
I'm you're mistake

I can't love you
I won't ever
But we'll be like this forever
Because good enough, is just enough
When you're a heart
In search of love

Never hear mine (lyrics)

Words they tend to sting
Like salted wounds on my feet
There's nothing bittersweet
About it...

You've got the worst of me
Uncover eyes to see me clearly
And you'll see me bleeding,
Bleeding out

You knew me well enough
To take my heart for granted
But you never saw the hurt
When your vision was slanted (slanted)
They say there's three sides to every story
But you never heard mine

Drown me under your covers
With every downfall I have
There's nothing secretive
About you...

You've had the best of me
Open up your eyes, see me clearly
And you'll see me trying,
Trying to say

You knew me well enough
To take my heart for granted
But you never saw the hurt
When your vision was slanted (slanted)
They say there's three sides to every story
But you never heard mine

Listen up
You never got enough
Of what I needed to say
Listen up
I was never good enough
But I needed (needed) to say
Listen up...
Or you'll never hear mine

You knew me well enough
To take my heart for granted
But you never saw the hurt
When your vision was slanted
They say there's three sides to every story
But you never heard mine
Yeah, they say there's three sides to every story
You will never hear mine...

Boys Cry (lyrics)

Some boys are fragile
Some girls act strong
Some boys have shoulders
To hang girls hearts on
Others have hearts
To handle with care
Some girls that take it
Don't know how to play fair

Pass it around, pass it around
Hearts fall to the ground
Girls they cry, girls they weep
But no one wonders how the boys keep
Tears from their eyes, hands they've untied
Nobody wonders how or why
Boys cry

Some girls are cold
Some boys are warm
Some girls break boys in
If they stay too long
Others tell lies
To keep up their faces
Some girls like the boys
Who know where there place is

Pass it around, pass it around
Hearts fall to the ground
Girls they cry, girls they weep
But no one wonders how the boys keep
Tears from their eyes, hands they've untied
Nobody wonders how or why
Boys cry

Chests too strong to cave under the weight of pain
All along not one can let it out or erase
They carry around, hearts grating the ground
But no tears to make a sound...

Pass it around, pass it around
Hearts fall to the ground
Girls they cry, girls they weep
But no one wonders how the boys keep
Tears from their eyes, hands they've untied
Nobody wonders how or why
Boys cry

Miss Take (lyrics)

Silver Steps, Light Dress
She's got a lot on her chest
But she'll rip it, rip it, rip it right off
If you--
If there were better, She's the best
Laying hands all over your chest
But she'll go, go, go lower
If you let her

Don't mistake me, Miss Take
I don't wanna get in her way
But if she crosses my path
She'll feel the aftermath
Of Miss misbehave!
Don't mistake me, Miss Take

Anchored Hips, Every Way
She has the curves to keep the boys at bay
And she'll use them, use them, use them
If you--
There can't be better, she's the best
The devil's mistress in a strapless dress
And it slips, slips, slips right off

Don't mistake me, Miss Take
I don't wanna get in her way
But if she crosses my path
She'll feel the aftermath
Of Miss misbehave!
Don't mistake me, Miss Take
She's not the only one
Who has that kind of fun
But I get mine--in better ways
Miss Take, Don't mistake me, Miss Take

It's easy to be better than someone easy
It wouldn't be me to take it down like that
It's easy to be better than someone easy
I don't need to be like that to get through

Don't mistake me, Miss Take
I don't wanna get in her way
But if she crosses my path
She'll feel the aftermath
Of Miss misbehave!
Don't mistake me, Miss Take
She's not the only one
Who has that kind of fun
But I get mine--in better ways
Miss Take, Don't mistake me, Miss Take
Don't.

Still (lyrics)

I can only take so much
Before I crumble standing here
Still you want to treat me
Like you never needed me
You're a vacant soul
With eyes like cold
Which spreads to the floor beneath me
Still I want to treat you right
Before you try to leave me

Is there still anything here?
Is there still anything left?
Is there still hope for us?
Or is everything still...
The mess we left

I've learned to take a lot more
Then what I've ever given
Still I want to try and see
If life is worth living
You were a hopeless case
Who lost their face
And only I could see it
Still I wanted you before I knew
That it'd make me so depleted

Is there still anything here?
Is there still anything left?
Is there still hope for us?
Or is everything still...
The mess we left

I can't lose hope
I can't lose feelings
I can't feel hope
Without you near me
I know you're wrong
I know you're not for me
But still I need...

Is there still anything here?
Is there still anything left?
Is there still hope for us?
Or is everything still...
The mess we left

Is there still anything here?
Is there still anything here?
Is there still anything here?
Is there still...anything...

Lick (lyrics)

Oh just let me
Oh just let me
I'd be more than willing
To lick a little flavor
It's really not a favor
When I'm doing what I want

Don't take me wrong
I haven't been doing this long
But as long as I've done it,
It's what I've longed to do
Does it seem so wrong?
To be a girl who knows what she does
To be a girl who's not as innocent as she seems
Not innocent at the seams

Oh I'll let you
Oh I'll let you
Take a little step forward
Let you lick a little...ha...more
It's never going to be a bore
When I always want more

Don't take me wrong
I haven't been doing this long
But as long as I've done it,
It's what I've longed to do
Does it seem so wrong?
To be a girl who knows what she does
To be a girl who's not as innocent as she seems
Not innocent at the seams

Not every girl is an actress
Not every girl will hide her intentions
I have no need to hide the devil in me
I have to get what I need
Not every girl is like me
Not every girl is like me

Don't take me wrong
I haven't been doing this long
But as long as I've done it,
It's what I've longed to do
Does it seem so wrong?
To be a girl who knows what she does
To be a girl who's not as innocent as she seems
Not innocent at the seams
Not at all at the seams

Line of Fire (lyrics)

Static may very well be everything I hear from you
Your words are nothing but nonsense, nonsense
Every other sentence, sentence
Is a repeat of the last
Insult after insult, I've grown accustom to that

I'm never in the line
Just on it
I walk across it
Might as well own it
Getting shot at
Is twice the fun
When walking the line of fire
Without a gun

Might as well cover my arms when I'm near you
Timing is perfection with your violet violence
Every other motion, motion
Digs deeper than the last
Wound after wound, I've gotten used to that

I'm never in the line
Just on it
I walk across it
Might as well own it
Getting shot at
Is twice the fun
When walking the line of fire
Without a gun

Running low on ammunition?
Against the bulletproof girl
Don't worry, I'll bleed when you're all out
For now I walk and walk
On the line of fire
Taking on what I must
To live for my desires

I'm never in the line
Just on it
I walk across it
Might as well own it
Getting shot at
Is twice the fun
When walking the line of fire
Without a gun

Strong (lyrics)

Strong, be strong
You wanna make it out alive
Strong, be strong
You gotta live another lie

Lose a lung while your shouting at someone else
Cause' you're the only one who's not living for them-self
A perfect model of what a girl should be
You down that bottle, just to get some good relief

It'll last, it'll last
Not a little too long

Strong, be strong
You wanna make it out alive
Strong, be strong
You gotta live another lie
You're a rock in a hard place
Crumbling, crumbling
It's just your face

Wear a mask to hide the scars caught in your eyes
There's not a reason left to stop and even try
You've already built a perfect fantasy
You close your eyes, just to get--some good--relief

Strong, be strong
You wanna make it out alive
Strong, be strong
You gotta live another lie
You're a rock in a hard place
Crumbling, crumbling
It's just your face

Just,just judge me
We gotta take in all they see
Just, just jade me
We gotta play the part that they all see
Cause' you're crumbling, crumbling
While you're mumbling, mumbling

Strong, be strong
You wanna make it out alive
Strong, be strong
You gotta live another lie
You're a rock in a hard place
Crumbling, crumbling
It's just you're--
Crumbling, crumbling
Crumbling, crumbling
It's just your face

Castles (lyrics)

I'm a little bit,I'm a little bit, I'm a little bit
Out of touch with reality
I never get it, I never get it
I only ever see what I believe
Believe me
I've tried to spell it out for myself
I ache through the nights I search for meaning in this hell

I've lived in secrets
And stolen heartbreaks
I've made my castle
Out of invisible bricks
And breaking, breaking
Is harder when you've got no walls
But making, making
My self-destruction is worth it all

I'm so sick of it, I'm so sick of it, I'm so sick of it
All the things I have to be
And I realized, yeah I realized
I only pretend to ever be me
To be me
It's harder than it looks
I search through the day for a way to make myself get through

I've lived in secrets
And stolen heartbreaks
I've made my castle
Out of invisible bricks
And breaking, breaking
Is harder when you've got no walls
But making, making
My self-destruction is worth it all

Crashing, crashing
I'm slowly seeing
Through it all
Break me, break me
I'm unafraid
about to fall

I've lived in secrets
And stolen heartbreaks(For I--)
I've made my castle
Out of invisible bricks
And breaking, breaking
Is harder when you've got no walls
But making, making
My self-destruction is worth it all

I beat you to it, won't lie and say "I'm Sorry"

Let your sounds sever themselves
It's too late to matter
I'll let you fade into yourself
It's been a long wait 'til now
But we'll cash in on the echoes of the remedy
From our choices, we match in lines
But I the faster melody

Always just one step off
Just another round about
Travel by syllables
Instead of just letting it out
Pace is key when it comes down to it
Pace is key and the only way you'll get through it

It's such a waste for you to go
I've let you etch cleverly on the surface
It's too late to stop the spread of what we know
You will cash in on the tails of the silence
And from your choices, we'll match in lines
But I'll have pride on my side

Always just one step off
Just another round about
Travel by syllables
Instead of just letting it out
Pace is key when it comes down to it
Pace is key and the only way you'll get through it

Faster, faster
Let it spill over
Slower, slower
And hold it over
Ev-ery-thing you thought (you thought)
You thought right, but said it wrong!

Always just one step off
Just another round about
Travel by syllables
Instead of just letting it out
Pace is key when it comes down to it
Pace is key and the only way you'll get through it
Hey, you asked how I got through it...

Push (lyrics)

Dancing on the edge of my eyes
Time fleets around
Time fleets around
No promises wrapped in lies
I find my ground
I find my ground

But things aren't always
So strong and stone
I can't always survive
On my own

You push me
Into things that terrify
Things that manage to light my life
You push and pull me through my hell
Because I never could push myself

Walking up and down walls that surround
There's a way out
There's a way out
Look to me, that someone sound
But that I doubt
But that I doubt

People never are
What they try to be
I would never survive
If there was no you for me

You push me
Into things that terrify
Things that manage to light my life
You push and pull me through my hell
Because I never could push myself

Disappear from my sight
You're still there in my soul
I slowly sink inside your might
You take all control
You push me...you push me...you push me...

You push me
Into things that terrify
Things that manage to light my life
You push and pull me through my hell
Because I never could push myself

I slowly sink inside your might...

Crimson (lyrics)

Eclipse around my roses
Pockets full of causes
Taking on the weight of the wild
To time you're merely a child
But you think like only men shall
Fatally falling into a place you're not allowed

And you're in a soft sickness all right
Crossing the tide lines
You take my sides
While you take your time
Your time will only last so long
While you cross my tide lines
To the sickness of your song

To the tips of my toes
The prickly thorns of your rose
What tells the hours that divide
That we cannot count while we survive
Nothing more, nothing that will end
Inside and Out we'll taken that route again and again

And you're in a soft sickness all right
Crossing the tide lines
You take my sides
While you take your time
Your time will only last so long
While you cross my tide lines
To the sickness of your song

I think I've lost myself to you
When I did I never knew
You toy and trail through my mind
Sinking in with graceful crime
And I'm in a kind of sickness...
Your kind of sickness...

Oh, you're in a soft sickness all right
Crossing the tide lines
I take your sides
While we take your time
Our time will only last so long
While you cross my tide lines
To the sickness of your song

Frozen (lyrics)

Cradle your head
And ice your thoughts
You're never going to free the fallen
Time and life escapes so easily
People can't come back from being frozen

I want to warm you up
But the cold spreads over
I want to heat your heart
But it's no longer there
Your skin is blue
From keeping in all truths
Sorry I was never there for you

I've caved in my hands
And sent out my thoughts
I fought to feel you near me
You always left without needing me
I can't bring you back once you're frozen, you know

I want to warm you up
But the cold spreads over
I want to heat your heart
But it's no longer there
Your skin is blue
From keeping in all truths
Sorry I was never there for you

Back and forth
I skate across
What we've created
Never wanting, never asking
Always needing, no relaxing
Freeze around me
So you can stay a while
But you'll melt away
It's just your style

I want to warm you up
But the cold spreads over
I want to heat your heart
But it's no longer there
Your skin is blue
From keeping in all truths
Sorry I was never there for you
But you never said for me to.

Trinity (lyrics-you probably won't get)

Trinity, Trinity
I feed your eyes
Trinity, Trinity
I need your lies
To coat me over
In wax and gleam
Trailing stream
I wish it was, oh I wish it was

Three is a funny number
One is always odd and out
Three is a wicked number
One is left in the shadows of doubt
For I am three and we are one
What good of this will become?

Trinity, Trinity
Have you made up your mind
Trinity, Trinity
Is time going according to time
Phase me slowly
Take me over
So I know I'm the only
I wish I were, oh I wish I were


Three is a funny number
One is always odd and out
Three is a wicked number
One is left in the shadows of doubt
For I am three and we are one
What good of this will become?

Chances are willing things
Men are fleeting on their wings
But I will always be
One and Three
Remember me.

Three is a funny number
One is always odd and out
Three is a wicked number
One is left in the shadows of doubt
For I am three and we are one
What good of this will become?