Don't You Want Me (Video Included)

Ha.Ha.

I caught your whisper on my tongue
I caught a whisper on my tongue
I caught your whisper
I caught your whisper on my tongue

The devilish grin is working on you
The smile I see is working on me
But that was just destiny

And I see it your eyes
I see my demise
I wanna be your prize cause' I know
I see it your face
The devil's disgrace
I wanna be used...
I wanna be with you.

I'm not ashamed to play these games but--

Don't you want me? Don't you want me?
Don't you want me? Don't you want me?
Ha.Ha.

The crowd's closing in
I see on your skin
I see you melt away
I know I'm gonna pay for this
(yea)
The pain was on lips
You caught me by the hips
I wanted you stay
I wanted you -- to come and play
To come and play
Play


I'm not ashamed to play these games but--

Don't you want me? Don't you want me?
Don't you want me? Don't you want me?

I know it's hard to be so eager

I see

The lightning struck twice tonight

Struck Twice

I am losing

I am losing my life tonight

But I don't mind, I don't mind

I'm not ashamed to play these games but--

Don't you want me? Don't you want me?
Don't you want me? Don't you want me?

I know it's hard to be so eager

I know it's hard to be so eager

I had to put up the video because I came up with the song in one take and I might as well, right? Bleh.

Forgive the loss of tempo in moments, when I'm first writing a song I don't bother to fix that stuff, I'm only concerned about the melody/lyrics initially.

Little Girls.

If I wasn't the one I should've been told
There could've been a warning
I could've known
Seen the signs, know my whys
But I never get to choose when I'm pushed aside

Little girls they play with toys
Have no hearts
They steal the joys
Little girls they play with toys
And never ever learn

If I could've been better I should've known
Why couldn't I be warned?
I could've been told
Catch the drifts, seen you slip
But I never get a break---


Little girls they play with toys
Have no hearts
They steal the joys
Little girls they play with toys
And never ever learn
They never take turns

It could be so much easier
With less hurt
If we were honest
It's not pleasing here
Just leave me here


Little girls they play with toys
Have no hearts
They steal the joys
Little girls they play with toys
And never ever learn
Never ever learn.

When You Come Around (lyrics)

Was that the doorbell ringing clear?

Cause' you're miles and miles away, but I would

Like to feel you right beside me

Is that what you wanted to hear

That I'm a liar and loser

I like fire, but I burn too easily

When you come around

And I stumble down (calling out to you)

When you come around

And I stumble down

When you come around

Don't leave

Is it your voice inside my head?

I can hear you say you miss me

Are these lies I tell myself in bed?

No one believes what I would do

To be near you, just to feel you

It's a heart ache

That I'll never make it through

When you come around

And I stumble down (calling out to you)

When you come around

And I stumble down

When you come around

Don't leave

What is wrong?

Are things unclear?

It took me years to fall apart, but now you're here

Is this wrong?

Am I insane?

To be the only girl in love with all your games…

When you come around

When you come around

When you come around

And I stumble down

When you come around

Don't leave

So here's my alibi

And here's why I'm alive

You took a piece of me

When you come around

Don't leave…

Don't leave me...

Anti-You (lyrics)

Yeah, it's a curious thing

When you're falling so suddenly

You can believe any word he speaks

And I wanted to breath

Another play was stunning me

Another me was blind to see

That I'm the Anti-you

Keep pushing you out until I become immune

I... learned what I wanted to

Don't wanna know you're getting through

Cause I know it's going good

I---I don't wanna know your secrets

I---I don't wanna know-oh-oh

I--You can spin me around but I don't

Know why

You keep tearing me down but I know

You you you can come around

You you you can stumble down

But I--I don't know what you want from me

Here we go again

Have I mentioned that you're so plugged in?

So you can hear nothing.

And I'm the only one, yeah, the only one

Wasting the time screaming

Yeah, you knew that you you

Yeah, you knew what to do do

So, I, Couldn't see oh…

I--You can spin me around but I don't

Know why

You keep tearing me down but I know

You you you can come around

You you you can stumble down

But I--I don't know what you want from me

Oooh, Ooh

You had a habit of building fine lines

Excuses, lies, excuses

I gave you the best of what I was

When I thought I was useless, useless

But now...

I--You can spin me around but I don't

Know why

You keep tearing me down but I know

I---I don't wanna know your secrets

I---I don't wanna know

I--You can spin me around but I don't

Know why

You keep tearing me down but I know

You you you can come around

You you you can stumble down

But I--I don't know what you want from me

200 Word Song (Song Challenge)

Always had a habit of

Picking and choosing all the wrong ones

So when you came in suddenly

It was no surprise you were the one for me

I could tell it was gonna be a crash and burn ride

Why didn’t I run?

How long can I keep my fingers crossed?

How long can you stay at a loss for—breath?

With the weight of what’s left

This wreck. Is all you.

Speeding into chaos for freedom fun

Making me a rebel for once

But I don’t like to crash and burn

So you’re the only one

Saw it coming, didn’t run

Why didn’t I run?

How long can you keep your fingers crossed?

How long can you stay at a loss for—breath?

With the weight of what’s left

Crashing down on your chest

Yeah, we’re both in mess

This wreck. Is all you.

The stronger the pull

The harder the crash

May it… last…

How long can you keep your fingers crossed?

How long can you stay at a loss for—breath?

With the weight of what’s left

Crashing down on your chest

Yeah, we’re both in mess

Crashing down on my…chest…

This wreck. Is all you.

All Alone (lyrics)

It's been ten years
Since I've heard your voice
I wish I could keep you
But it's not my choice
I've been wondering
What you're doing now
You were like a drug
I couldn't put you down--down--down

Oh, all alone, I've been wandering long
Oh, all alone, I've been hoping so long
But I found my hurt in my eyes, in your head
But I found myself under 6 six feet
And now I'm dead

You think I'm a fool
I already know
Cause I played the one
Who played the rules
And I'm done
Sitting 'round wasting time

I'm addicted to ya
I ain't gonna lie-lie-lie

Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
 Counted down the years til
I grew stronger
 Wanted to know
What's taking you long, oh
Now I'm all alone

You think I'm dead
But I'm on arrival
You think I play the fool
But I play reviv-vival
And I know you're the one
Even though you shot me down
Ready for my close up
While I'm bleeding through these sounds

Now I'm all alone
What did I do wrong?
What's between us?
Lies and dysfunction.
Now I'm all alone
Wondering where I'd go
Wandering where I know
Now I'm all alone
Wondering where I went wrong
Wondering how I'm alone
Now I'm all alone
Where did we go wrong?
I just think so loud and you heard me
Oh...now I'm all alone

I can break you down
I can find you out
I will find you
I will hunt you
I can't be alone
Not the way I want
I will find you
I will hunt you
I am scared of the dark
I am scared of my heart
And the beating I take from it
I am scared of this hell
I am scared of your help
Oh, as well

Now I'm all alone
Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
Now I'm all...a...lone

Dreaming (lyrics)

I feel like I am chasing the ground
I feel like I am losing you now
I feel like I am being torn in two directions
I feel like I am never gonna learn my lessons (I've been needing lethal self-injections)
Use me, abuse me
Hold on, don't you dare lose me
Take me and break me
If you won't wake me, shake me
Fulfill me and thrill me
Please keep me inside your head
Forsake me and make me--
But don't you dare...

Cause I'm dreaming
Til you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
Now I can't sleep without you by my side

I feel like I have broken you down
I feel like I've been wanting too much of you now
I feel like I'm being something else
I feel like I'm believing in spite of myself

So take me, mistake me
Please lay me down and break me
I'm constant--ly craving
Someone, but don't you--

I need you, to make me
You know you drive me crazy
You want me, you shake me
But please, don't dare you wake me

Cause I'm dreaming
While you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
And I can't sleep without you by my side


 (Em I think) Please don't let me go
(starts on Am) Cause I feel it
And you feel it
I know you will be lost
Without me too
And you're leaving
Nightmare's screaming
But I won't sleep
Without you--out you, oh!


Cause I'm dreaming
While you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
And I can't leave knowing you're--
No, I can't sleep knowing you're gone now~~~
I'll keep on dreaming.

Bloodlust Game (poem)

Little things; The human things that made me happy

Are all gone.

I'm starving, thirsting, for more - old or new

Anything to sate my appetite

Fill this whole forming in my core

To stop any others from forming in my chest

But instead I get less.

Empty words, admired less

I tried to force my smiles less

It's not working

Yet you're so worth it

I'll work through it

But I must admit...

If this is better, I don't want the best

I want a chaotic mess

A storm through my living room

A whirlwind begging, screaming "yes"

Not: you, you, you can be next

When your heart's not in it

Everything's pointless

Like the remnants of a shipwreck

Yeah she's there, but she's sinking fast

Drowning beauty; salt-water ties her happiness

And I don't think it's too much to ask

Not to have to force a fall for the past

I'm not the same

Since he came, and the one before him...

Yeah, I've changed.

Torn by two extremes

But never in between

Would you ask your life to settle in the seams?

I'm a killer or a queen

To me they're both the to blame

Now everything means nothing to me

Sure, I like him like a game

   That's already been played

But I crave hellp like a bloodlust I could never tame

Torn by two extremes

With my skin between their teeth

Am I good enough to love?

Or good enough to eat?

Either way the devil's knocking

Urging me to run

But I can't escape my old ways

Until my truths are gone

One- cursing, throwing, kissing, knowing, sure I'm young but I've been growing

   Fell too fast, but he saw it'd come to that

Two- he tasted, never wasted, biting, bleeding, loving, leaving.

   He's the one I could be needing now...

But I don't want my bloodlust

I want to run away

Escape a little, trip some more

Become addicted to new pain

Starting today I feel nothing

I don't think my heart will play

Or stray.

At least not for just any game.

You're mine (lyrics)

Stop staring at me, It has to burn more than the sun
On skin--that's pale and thin--beats through like you're the
One to break me down into this casualty...

And your everything...

Tear me into pieces
Take me into new eyes
(Your eyes, you eyes)
I don't like them there
But when you're here I'm
Falling into sirens
Basking in the glowing lights
I don't like me there
But when you're here
You're mine

You always cross the line, and don't know when to stop
Or where to go when I'm getting what you're not--
Getting from me, getting from me

Is my everything

Tear me into pieces
Take me into new eyes
(Your eyes, you eyes)
I don't like them there
But when you're here I'm
Falling into sirens
Basking in the glowing lights
I don't like me there
But when you're here
You're mine

And I've tangled myself
Inside--Inside of all the--
Webs you've made of my mind
(Lose my--Losing all the time)

Tear me into pieces
Take me into new eyes
(Your eyes, you eyes)
I don't like them there
But when you're here I'm
Falling into sirens
Breaking out of my--
And basking in the glowing lights
I don't like me there
But when you're here
You're mine (You're mine, you're mine)
You know I like you here
Cause when you're here
You're mine