Martyr (lyrics)

Your words are quiet
But the message is clear
Your eyes are violent
But you say "I can't go on, dear."
You tell me things that I can never seem to
Grip. On. Tightly. Too.
According to you...
My life's perfect.
And it sucks to be you.

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...

Your mind is broken
But does that make it right?
Your eyes aren't open
But you say "I can see just fi-ine."
You explain to me things that I
Would. Never. Live. Through.
According to you...
My life's perfect.
And I could never be you (Like I'd want to!?)

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...

Don't you get tired of being a fool?
Don't you get tired of ruining you?
You've taken it to a new extreme
The lies you've learned to lead
Lost sight of what's right in front of you...

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...
Out of..you..

Sweet Sweet Disease (Fazp and KG)

One too many times into an open ended bloodstream
Close your eyes and lick your lips prepare for the obscene
Torture me with pain that I would not have found myself
Tell me that it's for the best and it's all in good health

So how will you treat me?
When my body is weakening...
Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You're just my disease

Numb the voices in my head convince me they're not real (they're not real)
Break me down with medicine to hate the way I feel
Give me scars on every inch of skin and kiss them all (kiss them all!)
Tie me down in white to make myself match all the walls


So how will you treat me?
When my body is weakening...
Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You're just my disease

Let your pills break me down
Beautiful Cancer eat me out

Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You are not the cure, no
You are not the cure, no!
You're just my disease

Thirteen (lyrics)

There are scars that just don't heal
There are words that never drift away
Always lessons that I can't deal with, yeah
Some things won't ever stop hurting

There is pain that I can't escape
And smiles aren't always easy to fake
For years


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...


There are eyes that will never see
There are wrists that will never bleed
But unfortunately those don't belong to me, yeah
And some memories won't ever stop reeling

There is pain that I can't forget
And smiles aren't always easy to fake
Forever


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...


You don't know what's on my mind,
I've broken so many dreams
Time and time again
I keep shutting down
Like I'm thirteen and my vision was spinning
Out of control
Like I'm thirteen and I'll never be winning...
Here.


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...

Contemplations (Lyrics) 11-9-08

She stares up at the ceiling
Hoping for the pain to die down
She's losing sense of feeling
But her eyes don't start to close now
It's taking too long
She's running out of time
The time she needs to run out of life


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now
Lesson learned


She drowns in red dying white skin
Thinking it's a test from her mind
She doesn't mind if it takes it all
But she hates to waste her time
It's going too slow
She's running out of patience
Patience she holds her breath with til it leaves...


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now
Lesson learned


Don't scare her and say it's not the end
She's almost there, she's almost gone again
Pulse dying down
World's falling all around
No one makes a sound
It's a blessing in disguise...in her broken eyes


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now...
Lesson learned


It's quiet.

All Smiles (lyrics)

Can't help but fake em'
When the thought takes over
'You for her'
It tries to break me down
Lie and say it'll fail
My hopes will prevail
'But I know--not'

It breaks me down
It wounds my pride
But I'm not showing pain on the outside

So I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you

Can't fall asleep at night
When dreams creep in slow
'Me and you'
It lies to my hurt heart
Wake up with heavy eyes
Filled with broken cries of
'It will never work...'

It breaks me down
It wounds my pride
But I'm not showing pain on the outside

So I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you

Does pain wash away with the rain?
Because I've tried it all
And still got nothing
It hurts so bad to try and hide
I'm made of storms on the inside
Still I--

I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you
Mmmm...I'll smile for you