"A lonely Friday night, the sky is high without a single light. I know I'll be a wreck tonight, but it's alright. I won't be out of your sight."

Polyglot (Lyrics)

Because the look on your face is the same in every language!

Sliced up into pieces
Jaded underneath it all
Can't face the mirrored memory recall
She moved like wildfire
Well let's watch her burn
Everything we've built before you turned

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Shot down by my weakness
Trusted you with it all
Won't take that chance twice, won't make me fall
She hunted like a lion
And I watched her kill
Everything we've built before you turned

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Wish I
Could say
You've looked better
Wish I
Could see
What you let her see
You're not the person I used to know
You tried so hard to make him go away
Away Away Away...Away...

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Good Friend (Poem)

Thanks for being a “good friend”
The nights I needed a shoulder to cry on
I used a pillow then
Thanks for always “being there”
The times I needed to see you badly
You dismissed my calls without a care
Thanks for being “like blood”
The days I needed a sisterly figure
I was stepped all over, feeling lower than mud
Thanks for always “sticking around”
The hours I needed a healing hand
Nothing appeared…allowing my soul to spill on the ground


Thanks for being a “good friend”

The seconds I needed arms to crash in

You watched simply forgetting to catch me then…

Forever (Poem)

People come and people go
All of their lives intertwine
At moments their hearts can beat as one
They say their love will out last time
But one second can change their lives
And that is where forever ends.

Love changes time
The days become longer,
Your heart beats fast
Time changes love
One second you feel warm inside,
But that rarely last.

They say their love will out last time
But one second can change their lives
The new message their heart sends
They said they’d love you forever
But that’s where forever ends.

Back in the fall (Short Story)

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He said as she clung on tightly to his hand that day. She didn’t want to let go. The so many times before when she never had to, she would, but this time she couldn’t build up the strength to. As she stood close to him she thought about how saying goodbye this time came with chances, risks that would break her heart to take…she had no choice though. His hand fell from hers and tears brimmed in her eyes as she looked down to the floor. She couldn’t bear if he saw her this way.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He murmured again lightly, more to calm himself than to comfort her. He his heart dropped into his stomach as he felt the warmth fade away from his hand as the girl he loved let it go. He stared blankly at her, not seeing her face as she hid it from him. He regretted having to leave the one ray of hope in his life even for a second and now…it would be longer, much longer. He shook his head trying to clear away all the cold thoughts from his mind and touched her chin lightly, lifting her face to his. He kissed her gently feeling her lips quiver as she tried not to cry. She pulled away slowly, obviously not able to handle this hurt anymore. He knew she wouldn’t want him to see her this way. He left.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” Those words drifted in and out of her mind slowly staying longer each time. The months passed, but even so, each seemed like a year. Letters would come occasionally. He would tell her each time how much he missed her, how he was still okay and how he’d “be back in the fall”. Those re-assuring words did little good though. She wasn’t the same with out him. Even the beautiful summer days seemed like the most freezing of winter nights when his arms weren’t around her. She cried in their bed everyday and when she couldn’t cry anymore she still felt like she had no breath, as if the tears were still there, making her heart pound. Outside, in the real world, no one knew. She kept a false smile even though it hurt her. With each new smile her heart ached a little more. She tried to go on this way, only because she knew how much her loved her smile.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He jotted down on the piece of stationary she bought for him the day she found out he was leaving. The bombs from miles away sounded softer as he faded into thoughts of her. She was his escape, from the pain of the day, from the pain of no longer being the same after all he had seen. The deaths of friends, comrades, people he even killed himself haunted him. He didn’t want to be this way, a hollow shell of what he once was, but it was impossible for him to go back to the old him. Except, when she was on his mind. He never told her how horrible he felt in his letters. He didn’t want to even think of tears in her eyes, tears like the ones he cried every night. He wanted to think…she’d smile. That smile he loved, the smile he’d die to see in the fall.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” She repeated to herself standing still, the words he told her oh so many months ago. Tears were coming out of her eyes as the breeze blew through her hair on that fall day. She knelt down to the ground crouching amongst the leaves that had fallen from the trees surrounding her. She had been outside at that very spot for hours, still not believing that he kept his promise…not in this way. Her hand gently touched the cold stone she was in front of. Her fingers moved along the engraving carved. It was his name and now she regretted that he was back in the fall.

Dedicated to all those who’ve lost a loved one in the line of duty.

Random!

Once upon a time there was a piece of toast. Oh, what did that toast love most? Jelly on it's belly and it certainly did smelly delicious! Toast and Jelly TEEHEE

Nerd Girls (Good Girls Go Bad Parody)

I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go
Nerd girls go bad
Nerd girls go bad

I know you're type
yeah you're a chem major
yeah you're that girl
who does her friend's homework
but just one night you wanna do some wrong
maybe youll go and wear a thong

You're a wiz in class
But tonight, you're a pyschopath

I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go bad
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad

I know you're type
Girl you speak math words
Yeah you're that chick
I pay to be my tutor
But maybe once I'll invite you out
and learn what nerds are all about

You were so confused
Until I gave you some booz

I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go bad
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad

WHOOOOOOAAAA

She got the grades on the SAT
Gonna get her into Yale
But I got the booz in my car backseat
That will make her finally fail
Yeah, she got the grades on the SAT
Gonna get her into Yale
But I got the booz in my car backseat
That will make her finally fail

I make them nerd girls go bad
(She's gonna fail a test)
I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go
Baaaaaddd
Yeaaaaaah
Nerd girls go
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad

Here

I said I never
Wanted to break you down
I said I never
Wanted to start you up
I only wanted to make you see
The way this all has come out for me
But now all that it seems to be
Is us unable to think
Take a minute and let it sink
Into your mind
Because now we're here
Where is here?
Here is the place where it's not eye to eye
The place you think I want you to lie
I didn't ask you to comfort me
Disarm me
I didn't ask you to charm me
Your sudden changes to alarm me
Here is a state of mind the one we never share
The place where wrong is right & right means I just don't care
I didn't ask you to give into me
To make it seem like my love is just a plee
For attention
For victory
For anything
I can't take it while we're

Here
I guess I'm saying all these...
Honest thoughts
Out of fear
I know our end is near
But still...I just wanted things to be clear

But they will never be...

Here

You Made Me

If there was a moment I could take back
Every option would be of you
Seeing your eyes, your smile, your careless whispers
Letting you break me out all I knew

I don't regret who I am now
But I regret that you're not here
I regret that me finally being me
Is thanks to the lost, but once dear

Who I am and Who I was
Who you fell for and Who you caused
How could I think you'd love them all
When all I have is the "bottom of your heart"

A peace of mind in a passive place
I've searched for this in an open space
But closed in, close to you
Was the only time I ever escaped the truth

You're gone, I'm here
Just making it clear...
Seeing your eyes, your smile
Your careless whispers
A broken heart takes a while
Because the deepest arrow hits first

Who I was and Who I am
Who you caused had unsteady hands
Not good for holding on
To you...

A passing thought, but still the truth
You made me.

Cut me deep, Cut me off

Be something you're not
Be something I want
Be the person I know
Be the person you show
Be the one I can vent to
Be the one who I can dig my claws into
Be the girl who will laugh even when she's hurting
Be the girl who won't ever go deserting...me
Be whatever you want as long as I like it
Be whatever makes you happy as long as my opinions are invited.

Let me tell you who you are
Let me make you from the start
Let me analyze your mind
Let me help you waste my time
Let me build you up and tear you down
Let me guilt you into staying around
Let me be the disaster you love
Let me be the pain that fits like a glove
Let me play leech while you play my rock
Let me keep you under key and lock

You can't ever be yourself
You always have to be someone else
You won't dare face up to me
You can barely speak honestly
You don't think you're alive
You will never leave my hive
You wouldn't ever hurt me right?
You have no power to fight
You're already under my skin
You have no chance, I will win...

I blog, You blog, We all Blog

Am I supposed to write my feelings here? I don't know how I feel. I feel everything. From Affectionate to Zealous. I really don't know how to express it clearly. All I can say is, I feel like me and that's pretty damn awesome. Open and shut case....I don't blog very well.

Love KG

Anymore (Lyrics)

You...
You think you know who I am
You think you see who I am
But I'm here to say
You don't know one thing anymore
I believed in you
But this point we have come to
I'm here to say
I can't keep false hope anymore

I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

You...
You thought you knew how I felt
You thought I was somebody else
Hoped I would say
I can't live without you anymore
I wanted you
But this point we had come to
I had to say
I can't keep holding anymore

I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

Who am I?
Who was it I used to see?
It took some time
I've made up my mind
But it doesn't mean I left
That easily...
That easily...........


I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

Cry

I know I shouldn’t do this
At least not now
I’ve been breaking down for so long
I just don’t know how
How to breathe? How to live?
how to want this…why?
There’s nothing left for me to do
Just lay my head down & cry
Cry because I’m missing you
Cry because the pain is too
much to handle now alone
Cry because my heart is aching
Cry because my whole world is breaking
now that I can’t seem to want to live
I’ll cry tonight because I know
I had so much more…to give
I know I shouldn’t do this
But it’s right about time
I’ve been breaking down for so long
And now is when I’ll cross the line
Tonight I’ll cry.

It Hurts (Poem)

It hurts too much to bear
I go through days & get nowhere
Because it hurts…
It hurts to live & it hurts to breathe
It hurts to take the path I lead
It hurts to be seen, but never heard
I just think that I deserve
more
It hurts to stay awake through this
It hurts to take the pain I’m in
I see the way out and yet I don’t go
I’m scared for those who don’t know
It hurts to keep breathing when I’m
all alone

It hurts…

Dear Death...

Dear Death,

How have you been? It’s taken a while but here you are again.
I’ve missed you dearly, I’ll admit. You listen to me like I exist. But
isn’t existing what you take away? Well I’ll save that matter for another
day. How is everyone? Those you’ve taken away. They’re so lucky they don’t have to be around today. I would join them if I were brave, but no…

Instead I am a slave. A slave to living cowardly, I cling to physicality. I
had the bottle in my hand, but those damn pills just won’t come in.
I’ve decided to take my time. I’ll visit you in a way that seems
Sublime. Just look at me, and you’ll see the obvious. But it’s our little secret.

Everyone else is oblivious.

Little Red Dots(Poem)

Hey, that’s weird
That thing you’re doing
Pricking yourself down to ruin
Not ruin you, no of course not
But the carpet & the floor
It’s filled with little red dots

Hey that’s painful
That place you’re slicing
Your arm isn’t made for that kind of dicing
You should really really stop
It’s making me sick
Those little red dots

Hey, is it good?
That seems appealing
I know all those emotions that you’re feeling
Does it make them fade?
That little switchblade
Maybe I…should make you stop
I’ll take that blade
But…now my carpet
Has little red dots

Down On My Knees (Poem)

Have I not prayed long enough?
I thought I did, they said I had.
Guess we were wrong…
Have I not begged long enough?
I hoped I had, they said I did.
We can’t be wrong…
Hello! I’m here!
Perhaps too low to SEE
Down here on my knees
You’ve lost track of me
Down
On
My
Knees
Just look down to find me
don’t mind me
I’ll be here for a while
Until the ground turns to ash
And the ash turns to wind
And the wind carries my prayers
And I no long have to beg.
Has it been long enough…?
Loud enough?

Insanity (Poem)

So what? I hear your voices.
Yes, your voices.
All so different, but still
Your angry tones they range
…in colors…
Some bright red, a shade of
BLUE
I hear your voices
with shut eyes
Your angry voices & I realize
I love the
PAIN
They put me through
Insanity, you say, a new
angry voice today.
This one light purple due to
confusion.
You say your “voices” are all an
illusion
But they are real to me
And my insanity
I’ll take the angry voices happily
As long as it’s you with me

Music (Poem)

Let the ink spill from my pen
Unwinding the twists and turns
The ones my mind seems to have made
Let this paper be my bible
Unrelenting truths and vows
The ones my mouth has not set free before
Let these songs inspire all
Unwilling to let go of the past
The ones my heart goes out to

Love the Music

Sister (Poem)

Sister, oh sister, why must you cry?
For your heart is breaking
At the hands of one guy
Sister, oh sister, how do you deal with the pain?
For your heart is burdened
With weakness, nearly slain
If I could comfort you better, I’d do so
Without question
But time after time you never learn this
Lesson
Heartache and love isn’t the same
You’ll feel a tug at your heart for each
But differences remain
Sister, oh sister, when will you learn?
For your heart craves a loving
From him you shouldn’t yearn
Sister, oh sister, I can’t say much more…
Maybe one day you’ll gain disdain for his allure

Play The Role(Lyrics)

Start up the scene,boy!
I've got my lines
Running low on film so
I haven't got much time
Gonna make a move
You better make it fast
If it's not in the script
I'll let it pass - let it last

Break down the road rules
I've got them good
But I'm stuck here waiting
For you to run me through
Babe I'm not a red light
I'm glowing green
Not the first chance I gave you
To go above the speed - move fast with me
Oh Whoa Oh Oh

Take the free move I'm giving you baby
Take the easy route I'm letting you win
I'm not the type to shy away from a challenge
So shake it off and let the chase begin

Ooooh Ooooh
Don't take it slow, Just play the role

I'm right in the wrong ways
And it's wearing your doubts
I'll be be up in a second
To bring you back down
Down to my level
Down with me
Forget the boundaries
Improv with me- feel free

Take the free move I'm giving you baby
Take the easy route I'm letting you win
I'm not the type to shy away from a challenge
So shake it off and let the chase begin

Ooooh Ooooh
Don't take it slow, Just play the role

RoOoOole
Who are you?
Oh Oh!
Who are you?
Oh Oh!
Play the
RoOoOole

Ooooh Ooooh
Don't take it slow, Just play the role

Die Mannequin

In love In love In love In love In love

IN LOVE


I've always found it hard to explain what kind of music I wanna go into.

THIS IS IT.

CASE AND POINT.

Saved by Strangers, Killed by Ghosts ~ KG loves

Black Widow

You approach me like a spider
Weaving a web of my silhouette
I couldn't shake the arachnophobia
From my head
You eyed me a thousand times
Weaving your web of lies
And I...oh...I
I couldn't push your hungering fangs
From my bed

Cause' When you're in that web
Your options are life or death
I could play the victim
And let you win
Or I could play the Black Widow
And pull you back into me

You hold more power than I'd like
I can't play fly, I put up a fight
I couldn't take the excuses you've told up
In my head
You look with a thousand eyes
Weaving your web of lies
And I...oh...I
I couldn't push your begging cries
From my bed

Cause' When you're in that web
Your options are life or death
I could play the victim
And let you win
Or I could play the Black Widow
And pull you back into me

Do you love me?
Can you feel me in your veins?
I was hoping it was the venom I felt
Not love disguised as pain!

Cause' When you're in that web
Your options are life or death
I could play the victim
And let you win
Or I could play the Black Widow
And pull you back into me

I wanna be a hybrid...

Paramore
Fall Out Boy
Flyleaf
Escape the Fate
VersaEmerge
Avenged Sevenfold
Hey Monday
Breathe Carolina
Die Mannequin

I just want to rock