All Alone (lyrics)

It's been ten years
Since I've heard your voice
I wish I could keep you
But it's not my choice
I've been wondering
What you're doing now
You were like a drug
I couldn't put you down--down--down

Oh, all alone, I've been wandering long
Oh, all alone, I've been hoping so long
But I found my hurt in my eyes, in your head
But I found myself under 6 six feet
And now I'm dead

You think I'm a fool
I already know
Cause I played the one
Who played the rules
And I'm done
Sitting 'round wasting time

I'm addicted to ya
I ain't gonna lie-lie-lie

Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
 Counted down the years til
I grew stronger
 Wanted to know
What's taking you long, oh
Now I'm all alone

You think I'm dead
But I'm on arrival
You think I play the fool
But I play reviv-vival
And I know you're the one
Even though you shot me down
Ready for my close up
While I'm bleeding through these sounds

Now I'm all alone
What did I do wrong?
What's between us?
Lies and dysfunction.
Now I'm all alone
Wondering where I'd go
Wandering where I know
Now I'm all alone
Wondering where I went wrong
Wondering how I'm alone
Now I'm all alone
Where did we go wrong?
I just think so loud and you heard me
Oh...now I'm all alone

I can break you down
I can find you out
I will find you
I will hunt you
I can't be alone
Not the way I want
I will find you
I will hunt you
I am scared of the dark
I am scared of my heart
And the beating I take from it
I am scared of this hell
I am scared of your help
Oh, as well

Now I'm all alone
Now I'm all alone
Where did I go wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
Now I'm all...a...lone

Dreaming (lyrics)

I feel like I am chasing the ground
I feel like I am losing you now
I feel like I am being torn in two directions
I feel like I am never gonna learn my lessons (I've been needing lethal self-injections)
Use me, abuse me
Hold on, don't you dare lose me
Take me and break me
If you won't wake me, shake me
Fulfill me and thrill me
Please keep me inside your head
Forsake me and make me--
But don't you dare...

Cause I'm dreaming
Til you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
Now I can't sleep without you by my side

I feel like I have broken you down
I feel like I've been wanting too much of you now
I feel like I'm being something else
I feel like I'm believing in spite of myself

So take me, mistake me
Please lay me down and break me
I'm constant--ly craving
Someone, but don't you--

I need you, to make me
You know you drive me crazy
You want me, you shake me
But please, don't dare you wake me

Cause I'm dreaming
While you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
And I can't sleep without you by my side


 (Em I think) Please don't let me go
(starts on Am) Cause I feel it
And you feel it
I know you will be lost
Without me too
And you're leaving
Nightmare's screaming
But I won't sleep
Without you--out you, oh!


Cause I'm dreaming
While you're leaving
And I can't sleep without you in my head
Cause I wanted
To feel wanted
And I can't leave knowing you're--
No, I can't sleep knowing you're gone now~~~
I'll keep on dreaming.

Bloodlust Game (poem)

Little things; The human things that made me happy

Are all gone.

I'm starving, thirsting, for more - old or new

Anything to sate my appetite

Fill this whole forming in my core

To stop any others from forming in my chest

But instead I get less.

Empty words, admired less

I tried to force my smiles less

It's not working

Yet you're so worth it

I'll work through it

But I must admit...

If this is better, I don't want the best

I want a chaotic mess

A storm through my living room

A whirlwind begging, screaming "yes"

Not: you, you, you can be next

When your heart's not in it

Everything's pointless

Like the remnants of a shipwreck

Yeah she's there, but she's sinking fast

Drowning beauty; salt-water ties her happiness

And I don't think it's too much to ask

Not to have to force a fall for the past

I'm not the same

Since he came, and the one before him...

Yeah, I've changed.

Torn by two extremes

But never in between

Would you ask your life to settle in the seams?

I'm a killer or a queen

To me they're both the to blame

Now everything means nothing to me

Sure, I like him like a game

   That's already been played

But I crave hellp like a bloodlust I could never tame

Torn by two extremes

With my skin between their teeth

Am I good enough to love?

Or good enough to eat?

Either way the devil's knocking

Urging me to run

But I can't escape my old ways

Until my truths are gone

One- cursing, throwing, kissing, knowing, sure I'm young but I've been growing

   Fell too fast, but he saw it'd come to that

Two- he tasted, never wasted, biting, bleeding, loving, leaving.

   He's the one I could be needing now...

But I don't want my bloodlust

I want to run away

Escape a little, trip some more

Become addicted to new pain

Starting today I feel nothing

I don't think my heart will play

Or stray.

At least not for just any game.