Float (lyrics)

Let the music play
And the water run over
A cheerful melody
Makes her pain grow older
Oh, she'll sip the pain away
For forever let the music play

The same old, same old
Shameful, shameful sound
Girl learn to float, or drown

Let her drift away
And the world is over
A sour pair of lips
Makes everything taste bitter
Oh, she'll sip the pain away
For forever let her music play

The same old, same old
Shameful, shameful sound
Girl learn to float, or drown

It should be so simple
Like a beat to memorize
But the fear of the water
Is obvious in her eyes
And she hears...

The same old, same old
Shameful, shameful sound
I keep hearing
That same old, same old
Shameful, shameful sound
Girl you better learn to float, or drown

Elizabeth (lyrics)

You think I don't know
With every sigh you make
Takes a memory to break
A memory of her face
You think I don't know
That her lips are
Tattooed in your veins
Tattooed with her name

& I know I'll never be flawless
I don't have everything you want
But if you said the words
For you
I could just slit my throat with her perfection

You think I don't know
She's better than I am
She's where the game began
I'm just a second hand
You think I don't know
That her eyes are
Tattooed in your veins
Tattooed with her name

& I know I'll never be flawless
I don't have everything you want
But if you said the words
For you
I could just slit my throat with her perfection

I'll never know
I'll never know
What you saw in me
But it's hurting more
To see what you see
In...her...


& I know I'll never be flawless
I don't have everything you want
But if you said the words
For you
I could just slit my throat with her perfection
For Now
I bite my lip with your selection

This Christmas

I'm not the kind of girl
Who helps with decorations on the tree
I'm not the kind of girl
Who goes out caroling
And when I see a major scene
I always look away
Every year around this time
I act the same way

But this Christmas
A new feeling has taken over me
I want smiling and dancing
A little romancing
Under the mistle-toe
This Christmas
All I want
Is love
This Christmas
All I want
Is love

Voice.

I wonder how you feel
Being a voice in my head
Roaming and roaming
No life to be had
You live for me,
I live like you
I wonder what it feels like
To be useless too
Does it hurt your eyes
The pain you feel
Spread to your veins
So you know it's real
You're that voice telling me
What I need, need?
What I want, want?
Why I bleed, bleed.
I wonder how you feel
Being a voice in my head

Fake.

Fake a laugh
Fake a frown
Fake it up
Fake it down
Fake a high
Fake a low
Fake it deep
Fake a show
Fake a look
Fake a stare
Fake a worry
Fake a care
Fake yourself
Fake a mind
Face yourself?
Nor have I
Fake the day
Fake your walk
Fake your ways
Fake your talk
I'll fix you up
You'll fake it down
I'll build you up
You push me round
Oh, this cycle won't stop now

Eat

Save me some 380
Save me some to save me
Save me what you can give
Save me so I don't have to live
They say what doesn't kill you
Makes you stronger
Well I've found words
Stay with you longer & longer
Than expected
Save me some 380
Save me some to save me
Save me what you can give
Save me so I don't have to live
Save me.

Alone

Say it again, say the silence
The same old nothing, that makes me violent
I tug on my voice and scream no sound
No matter what I do, no one comes around
She let me linger here alone

Mirrors

Stained glass reflections

Sharp pieces of my skin

Brain washed lessons

A glossy part of me

I'm surrounded by a broken fun-house maze

I see people I've never seen

So many just like what I've been

But I can't look into those mirrors

Because I don't see myself

When I wanna break like glass

All I need is to look ahead

Into your mirrors

And I shatter on the spot

Wrists

Show me your wrists

Oh, did I cross the line?

I was hoping they would match mine

Forgive me, babe

I didn't mean to bring up

Past wounds

But those show through

Today

Teenager

Attention, Attention

She needs it for a minute

She's got a lot to read up on

She barely wants to skim it

The book is life

And her teacher's barely living

So pardon if she's slacking

She don't know what she's been missing

Belief

You've been imaginary my whole life

I try to believe you're by my side

I guess I can feel you in my soul

You fight hard to let me know

But I...

I'll never know for sure

My belief

Broken Heart

Don't take this the wrong way

Please, I never wanted it to happen

Don't take this like a hard it

Because you wanted it

You wanted to be the reason I'm in ruins

You wanted to be the one who could tear me down

Congratulations

It's done.

Walk Away

A path so dark

In my plain sight

Wanting to cross over

With every step I take I can't find

No one, no one

So should I have to walk away?

To get through this pain

M.U.S.E.

So you're feeling down on yourself?
Take a pill, before you got the prescription
So you're making life a living hell?
Take a break, before you make a condition
Out
Of
It.
Bad
Habits
Tearing you down!


Living off my life
My bad advice
But you only come around
To bring me down
And Put you up above
Na uh - Na uh
Who do you think
You are?
My Un-Seen Enemy

Actor

I'm all acted out
But you're begging me for more
I had no spaces for faked faces
On my player's wall
Why do I have to be a so faux
To get your attention
I'd like to complain, sir
But I haven't learned my lesson

But I'll lie for you
I'll be what you want
I don't know who I am
So this face I'll flaunt
I'll lie for you
I'll play that little part
When it comes to telling truths
I don't know where to start

You Know

My mind has always been beyond my years
My thoughts linger longer than any downfall of tears
And I remember things, I probably shouldn't even know
And I don't build up walls, just stages for my soul

You used to say you know
Well did you know that?
I thought you had a knack
You might have to take back
Everything you thought was fact
You used to say you know
Well did you know me?
Truth be told
You always used to look right through me
Well did you know that?
You never knew me

Quote

I'm not following anyone's footprints I found in the sand, I've made my own way this far and if my tracks just happen to walk the same path as yours, it's because we're both not letting anything stand in our way...

Stare.

Countless stares,
Never been prepared for this kind of show
They've wasted names
And set their filters for high, I'd rather low
I could give them reasons to
Dislike the games I play
I could rig the pride they knew
To simply fade away
Along with me, the hopeless

Stop looking over here please
I can't take the heat of your eyes
Stop spending all your time on me
I've lived a life of lies
You can't see through me
So you see me straight through
Stop looking at me
I can't look at you

Before I knew

It's been such a long time

Haven't seen your eyes

Hate that last look you gave me

Hate to see your pain

I could feel your heart break in time

You made me choose

Either way I'd lose

Why can't I just...

Why can't you just...

Turn back time

Everything became so much deeper

I never thought you'd make weaker

By feeling more alive

And some of my heart wants you

And all of yours wants me

But I just can't see passed his eyes

And I wish I could feel your embrace

It could take the pain away

I've never been one to

Choose for myself

My heart makes me put others first

So when you ask me to

Think about me and you

I can't see it through

Now he's back

In my arms again

I still wonder just how you are

I know you claim to love me

But how can I believe

When you've abandoned me

As a friend

And some of my heart wants you

And all of yours wants me

But I just can't see passed his eyes

And I wish I could feel your embrace

It could take the pain away

I've never been one to

Choose for myself

My heart makes me put others first

So when you ask me to

Think about me and you

I can't see it through

Some of my heart

All of your heart

But I just

Don't make me choose

Either way I lose...

That Moment

I have no in between,

I either wear my heart on my sleeve

Or it's hidden in seems

So why can't you just stay away from me,

keep trying to put it back into place

Hun, I'm not your puzzle

and this heart won't fit in that space.

You say you know what's best for me

But how can't that be when life ain't that easy

You'll lead me down the right path

As long as I give up all the dreams I ever had

And I don't know if I can

Babe, not until I've had that moment.

Go.

You said you wouldn't leave me, but there you go

Without a second glance

You've left me with cold hands

Couldn't take a second to let me know

You said you wouldn't leave me, but there you go

Nervous.

My heart is racing 1,000 miles
Per minute might I add
I just figured you should know
What you triggered in me

I could trip on my own guts
If you'd like
Because I feel like they're ready to spew
Over and out

I can't do this alone
I'll fail
Of that, I have no doubt.

The Fear

Strike me quickly
You rattle snake
I know they lie
When they say you're slow
You hit with bricks
Not soft like snow
I'm not ready for the blow

For the fear to come in
And take away my life
For the fear to consume
And become my only vice
For the fear is not a choice
It's only what's right

The fear is getting to me tonight.

Stand up

Ha!

Did you think that I would come this far?

Did you think that I would do all this

For nothing? No, no.

Did you think you would just get your way?

Did you think I went through my mistakes

For nothing? No, no.

I've made up my mind

I've taken my time (Oooh)

And I can't stand for this anymore

I'll break my wrists to get up off this floor.

Smiling (lyrics)

An ever present optimist
In the midst of a crisis
I can't handle this
You look on the bright side
Well how the hell can you see
Through the bright lights
If everything's against your side
I don't get how you still wanna survive

Why are you smiling?
When everything's breaking down
Why are you smiling?
Is there something, I'm missing around
Here
All around me is falling to pieces
All around me I can't see a single thing
But you're smiling.

Lions (Full)

They've caught onto your scent

Can you feel your fingers
Bleeding to the bone?
I see you cannot figure out
How numb you've become
The fear has not settled in
But they're outside you're home
You think the hunt would fade away
If you're all alone

It's like you don't even know
There are lions outside your window
Oh, There are lions outside your window
And they've caught onto your scent

There's no running away now
Would you even try?
I see you've lured the lions in
With the look in your eyes
The fear has not settled in
But they're outside you're home
You think the hunt would fade away
If you're all alone

It's like you don't know
There are lions outside your window
Oh, There are lions outside your window
And they've caught onto your scent


Can you cover it up!?
Before-- he catches you breathing
Catches you bleeding
Can you cover it up!?
Before-- he catches me breathing
While you're bleeding


It's like you don't know
There are lions outside your window
Oh, There are lions outside your window
And they've caught onto your scent

They've caught onto your scent

Mister Now (lyrics)

Lips up, palms down
He never comes around for long
Pulse fast, no frowns
Leaves my body singing that same old song

"I guess I do it to myself"
With every guy, I go through hell


How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to bleed
How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to breathe
All because you've taken over me


Repeat, Rewind
Old habits never die that way
One more, last time
The same old words in my mind replay

"I guess I do it to myself"
With every guy, I go through hell


How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to bleed
How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to breathe
All because you've taken over me


Who am I
To give out advice
When I live
And feed on vice
I suppose I know
That this is how it goes
When strangers
Hold...your soul


How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to bleed
How, Mister Now
I've forgotten how to breathe
All because you've taken over me
All because you've taken over me

I suppose I'll try to breathe...

Lions (chorus and bridge)

It's like you don't know
There are lions outside your window
Oh, There are lions outside your window
And they've caught onto your scent


Can you cover it up!?
Before-- he catches you breathing
Catches you bleeding
Can you cover it up!?
Before-- he catches me breathing
While you're bleeding
(*Breathing*)


It's like you don't know
There are lions outside your window
Oh, There are lions outside your window
And they've caught onto your scent


They've caught onto your scent

HIM (lyrics)

He says...He says...He says...

Run away with me
And I will make everything
Alright, tonight, tonight
Yeah, I just wanna know
If you really care for me
It's true that I can see
You wanna get away
From life, from life, from life

Can't see into the future
If you're so blind
Can't sink into the light

Follow me
It's okay
Don't be afraid
Of everything
You keep behind you
Don't hide away
It'll all be fine
If you just step into the light
Step into the light

Stunned so easily
You break from anything
You see, you touch, you feel
Yeah, I just wanna know
If you have faith in me
It's true that I can see
You want an escape
From life, from life, from life

Can't see into the future
If you're so blind
Can't sink into the light

Follow me
It's okay
Don't be afraid
Of everything
You keep behind you
Don't hide away
It'll all be fine
If you just step into the light
Step into the light

One step closer
To -- Seeing
Three Words
For -- New vision

Follow me
It's okay (to believe)
Don't be afraid
Of everything (the hurt)
You keep behind you
Don't hide away (your heart)
It'll all be fine
If you just step into the light
Step into the light

Everything will be alright
Step into the light...

Executioner ♥ (lyrics)

It's been perfected
Down to the final prayer
Done so many times
No one bothers to stop and stare
Shred me down
Take what you will
I've done the crime,
Time for the kill

Separate my mind from my body
Rather than rip out my heart
I'm not at all ready
So you better jump to start
If I don't make it
The executioner's done his part

It's not all that hard
When you see the hearts I've broke
You can ease your guilt
Knowing the lies of lies I told
Finish me off
Take what you will
I've done the crime,
Time for the kill

Separate my mind from my body
Rather than rip out my heart
I'm not at all ready
So you better jump to start
If I don't make it
The executioner's done his part

Limb from Limb
You've torn me apart
Tear down my masses
You're my work of art
It's so untimely how this has to end
But before I die...

Separate my mind from my body
Rather than rip out my heart
I'm not at all ready
So you better jump to start
If I don't make it
The executioner's done his part

Proper (lyrics)

Bite a lip
To hide split tongues
I can't behave for anyone
Should try and find a solid cure
But why try hard
When I live to endure

Proper
Mister may I
Take a bite of that apple you hold
Property
Mother made me
Take a bite of the hand that fed
Proper's not the way to be

Fuck it up
That's all I do
I can't ever tell the truth
Should find a mind that's more secure
Why settle down
When I long for more

Proper
Mister may I
Take a bite of that apple you hold
Property
Mother made me
Take a bite of the hand that feeds
Proper's not the way to be

May I,
May I,
Make a move
May I,
May I,
Take a breath
Must I,
Must I,
Listen to you
Must you,
Must you,
Second guess.

Proper
Mister may I
Take a bite of that apple you hold
Property
Mother made me
Take a bite of the hand that fed
Proper's not the way to be

Again and Again (lyrics)

It's the easiest thing
To let her take you in
But don't forget
Not every girl
Is going to let you win
Like I did

Hope that her lips are thin
Against your neck
Hope that your body's heavy
Against her back
And I know that when you need
A little extra push
To get you to the end
You're only gonna see my face
Again and Again

It could all be a lie
What she stirs inside you
Don't dare give in
Now or ever
At least not completely
Like I did

Hope that her lips are thin
Against your neck
Hope that your body's heavy
Against her back
And I know that when you need
A little extra push
To get you to the end
You're only gonna see my face
Again and Again

You always loved my bedside manner
It'll hurt to try to compare her
To me
Inside her...Beside her

Hope that her lips are thin
Against your neck
Hope that your body's heavy
Against her back
And I know that when you need
A little extra push
To get you to the end
You're only gonna see my face
Again and Again
Again and Again
Again and Again

Again.

Okay (I hate that word)

'Okay'
I hate that word.

Don't you dare say it again, okay?
Because it doesn't make things okay.

You say "okay" to almost everything
Like you were expecting something else.

You can't always get what you want, okay?
I'm sorry I can't make your life okay.

You don't understand, it's not okay
To dismiss my thoughts that way

Are you okay?
I doubt you are.
You're so fucked up
From past scars.

Life's not okay.
It's not okay.
Get over it, okay!

I hate OKAY.

Okay?

Separation Anxiety

You're suffocating me
With your anxiety
Separation is a good thing
But you just can't see
Absence makes my heart grow fonder
So I've never be fonder of absence
It's just not happening.
You must be terrified of being alone
Such clingy tendencies make it known
I'm sorry.
I love you.
But this is too much to bear.
Your fears are bringing life to those fears.
How can you not see?
Dragging me in, pushes me away.
I wish you'd let go of your separation anxiety.

Breathe (lyrics)

Why can't I put it into words?
I feel so reluctant
To slip them off my tongue
But to keep them in my throat
Would leave me breathless
I can only turn blue for so long
No air, no fair

So I breathe
And it takes me
Above everything
So I breathe
And it makes me
Forget everything
So I speak
And it reminds me
Of everything

It only took three seconds
For me to soak it in
The moistness in my mouth;
Is all anticipation
Leaking through carbon sky
I can't hold my breathe longer
No fair, no air

So I breathe
And it takes me
Above everything
So I breathe
And it makes me
Forget everything
So I speak
And it reminds me
Of everything

In, Out
In, Out
I've lost count
Syllables on the percipere of my throat
I'll never let them know

So I breathe
And it takes me
Above everything
So I breathe
And it makes me
Forget everything
So I speak
And it reminds me
Of everything

I can't breathe
I can't speak
For anything...

Phase (lyrics)

They want me to doubt
Never understanding what we had
Even though you're gone
You were the best I ever had
I won't just let it fade
Every look you ever gave
They can't drift away

My friends say you were just a phase
A point in life
A heart that changed
But I know better,
I knew you'd love me
If you let me in
I'm homesick over you
Because your love was
The closest I ever came to
Feeling like I belonged
And feelings this strong
Can't be just a phase

Wish I didn't doubt
I lie and say I'm perfectly sure
But I know I'm not
You're hands were much too good for mine
The fears will not fade
Every move you ever made
They can't drift away

My friends say you were just a phase
A point in life
A heart that changed
But I know better,
I knew you'd love me
If you let me in
I'm homesick over you
Because your love was
The closest I ever came to
Feeling like I belonged
And feelings this strong
Can't be just a phase

Don't let me go
No, I want you here again
But I suppose...

My friends say you were just a phase
A point in life
A heart that changed
But I know better,
I knew you'd love me
If you let me in
I'm homesick over you
Because your love was
The closest I ever came to
Feeling like I belonged
And feelings this strong
Can't be just a phase

Fixture (lyrics)

Stand still
Don't breathe
It's not easy to do
But you'll get the hang of it
You're just meant to be here
And look pretty
But you don't at all
Why are you crying?

You're just a fixture on our wall
You're not allowed to know it all
To witness our fears
To catch onto our tears
Since when are you real?
I've never seen you feel...before

Stand straight
Don't speak
It's all in your blood
It should work out naturally
Since you've always been here
Looking pretty
Now you don't at all
Why are you crying?

You're just a fixture on our wall
You're not allowed to know it all
To witness our fears
To catch onto our tears
Since when are you real?
I've never seen you feel...before

Don't look away, you're already facing in
Don't steal away the heart that let you in
I still think you're stone
You're fake and unreal
But you're the only thing not alive
That knows how I feel...
You feel it.

You're just a fixture on our wall
You're not allowed to know it all
To witness our fears
To catch onto our tears
Since when are you real?
I've never seen you feel...before

Losing (lyrics)

Time's wasting so quickly
You watch it pass as you sleep
But thoughts linger that never leave
It rages on like you and me

Feels like we're losing, doesn't it
Always does and doesn't
Can't win this battle we keep making up
Makes no sense to move forward stuck
And it won't sit right in your throat
If you never swallow
But I
Won't beg you to

Yeah, you've lost your heartbeat
Hard to balance with no feet
But keep your stance until we meet
It never ends with you and me

Feels like we're losing, doesn't it
Always does and doesn't
Can't win this battle we keep making up
Makes no sense to move forward stuck
And it won't sit right in your throat
If you never swallow
But I
Won't beg you to

And I'm just an acid in your veins
Reminding you, we'll never numb the pain

Feels like we're losing, doesn't it
Always does and doesn't
Can't win this battle we keep making up
Makes no sense to move forward stuck
And it won't sit right in your throat
If you never swallow
But I
Won't beg you to

Fall Down (lyrics)

Flashback
Ten years have long passed since then
I look and laugh about
How we had always been the best of friends
I knew back then, we had something I couldn't describe
At 8 years old, I had my first crush, with your eyes

I was known for looking up
A dreamer with eyes open wide
You were known for being there
Staring with me, by my side
I was always such a wreck
But you made me not worry
Because even if my sight got blurry
And I'd fall down
You'd catch me...

Flashback
Five years, it feels like it was just yesterday
I can't help but smile when
I picture us acting nervous that autumn day
You grabbed my hand, I knew that it'd all change now
At 13, I thought I had it all figured out

I was known for looking up
A dreamer with eyes open wide
You were known for being there
Staring with me, by my side
I was always such a wreck
But you made me not worry
Because even if my sight got blurry
And I'd fall down
You'd catch me...

The times have changed
But I'm glad to stay, we haven't
Through everything we've faced
We never let the bad in
You were for me, in love eternally
Though we'd never be much more
Than what we were ten years before...

I'm known for looking up
A dreamer with eyes open wide
You're known for being there
Staring with me, by my side
I was always such a wreck
But you make me not worry
Because even if my sight gets blurry
And I fall down
You'd catch me...

Down (Fazp/Kg)

I hear your voice in every direction pulling me, pulling me down
Taking me back to places where I don't belong now
Tearing me, tearing me down into something that I'll never be

Hey Hey
Am I a part of this story book ending of yours?
I don't know, now


Hey, Hey
What do you want from me?
Hey, Hey
What do you need from me?
Hey, Hey
I can't give anymore
I want you...
Going, going, going under
Down

You know where I've been and you've seen my mistakes dragging them, dragging them out
Making them into something that I cannot handle
Holdin' it, Holdin' it over my head. Cause' I'm so predictable


Hey, Hey
What do you want from me?
Hey, Hey
What do you need from me?
Hey, Hey
I can't give anymore
I want you...
Going, going, going

I'm not like you
Won't be like you
I will never be
Never be
Never be
Never be
LIKE
YOU


Hey, Hey
What do you want from me?
Hey, Hey
What do you need from me?
Hey, Hey
I can't give anymore


I want you...
Going, going, going under


Down...Down...Down...
You want me...going going going under
Down.

The Creationist (lyrics)

Paper skin and glass bones
A hollow heart to make ink flow
So you've replaced her blood again
With something thicker
If the world wasn't full of shallow minds
They would have noticed quicker

Building up, breaking down
You've jaded her eyes
Picking up, tearing down
Til she can't break the ties
Love doesn't make it right
To change her every flaw
She was fragile then
But now she's nothing at all

Manic thoughts and a soul shaved
She wasn't one that could be saved
Oh, You've done it now, congrats again
With hands behind your back
If the world wasn't full of guys like you
She'd never have to feel she lacks

Building up, breaking down
You've jaded her eyes
Picking up, tearing down
Til she can't break the ties
Love doesn't make it right
To change her every flaw
She was fragile then
But now she's nothing at all

Does it feel good?
Having helped destroy a soul
Bet you're laughing because
It was never really love at all
To you
But it was to her
So true
That she had to change
Just to live the lie you built

Building up, breaking down
You've jaded her eyes
Picking up, tearing down
Til she can't break the ties
Love doesn't make it right
To change her every flaw
She was fragile then
But now she's nothing at all

Goodbye (partial)

The world goes on so unaffected
Time moves quickly as expected there
In the center of times square
But there's a yellow house
So soft and small
That hasn't moved on at all
Frozen with the pain of losing everything

Everything that was important
Everything that made life worth it
Everything that could make day push on

Cry your eyes out
Your strength just gave out
But the memories don't slip away
As easily as tears
It's hard to face though
Can never be replaced so
Simply when he's walked beside you
All of these years
Seconds taken for granted
Now the whole world is slanted
Things would get better
If you just had another chance to say
Goodbye

Pride

Some say I'm naive
To still have pride
It was supposed to be crushed by now
But what's not to be proud of
I've survived
Through torment & teasing
Through bruising & bleeding
Through death & loss
Through memories I've lost
I've survived
I have my pride, by my side
Until the day I die
But don't mistake me
I'll still cry
I'm only human, and pride, is not a safe shelter
For one to hide
It's a temporary high for the vain
It's a temporary housing for the pain
It's a temporary plee for the insane
Still it survived
Me and my pride
Despite what we are
We're still alive.

The World

I could try to ease your pain
Let me tell you things will get better
The world is full of lies, if you let her in
They'll fix up all wounds
And cracked minds
Bend the rules and break the lines
It's about time
It makes up for being so cold
Bad lies out balance the good
In with the new out with the old
I'm sick, I swear
I'm not just cruel
In a world where hypocritical hystericals rule
I'm merely the jester in this court
Here to amuse your mind
And comfort your heart
I could try to ease your pain
Let me tell you things will get better
The world is full of lies, if you let her in

Fragile

Rip me apart
I'm sure it's not hard
It'll take two seconds
To cause me scars
Scars that will never heal
Because my skin is paper thin
Glue and tape can't fix me then
I've been a fool to think
I could grow

To think the world would somehow know

My name

I'm too fragile for this place...

Give Me Your Graces

I just found it today
The thoughts in my mind I had to seal up
They could make someone sane scream
But I don't mind that they're unsettling
They're where I can be what I want to be
So go on...

Give me your graces
Your blessings and your "holy" water
Give me your graces
But believe me
You could never slaughter feelings like this
They won't die down
In the name of your Judas
Give me your graces
I'll try to give you mine

You ever feel alone?
Those thoughts in my mind won't help me now
They could make me scream soon
But I don't mind that they're painful
They're where I can feel what I can't control
So go on...

Give me your graces
Your blessings and your "holy" water
Give me your graces
But believe me
You could never slaughter feelings like this
They won't die down
In the name of your Judas
Give me your graces
I'll try to give you mine

Maybe I do mind
I don't want to be trapped inside
Where there is no light
But I still hold on so tightly
To my wounded thoughts
Taking over me

Give me your graces
Your blessings and your "holy" water
Give me your graces
But believe me
You could never slaughter feelings like this
They won't die down
In the name of your Judas
Give me your graces
I'll give you mine

How can I (lyrics)

How can I go on
Knowing you're not coming back
How can I get over that
It's not a simple thing to face
My whole world changes without your face
I know...I know...I know
It doesn't make a difference to you


But I'm here waiting
Hope is fading
That you will realize
Realize your mistake
Wish you would've stayed
I just don't feel the closure
It's not coming over
Like it should


How can I pretend
That you'll realize what you did
How can I understand that
You Left me here to fend for myself
A broken heart can't mend by itself
I know...I know...I know
It doesn't make a difference to you


But I'm here waiting
Hope is fading
That you will realize
Realize your mistake
Wish you would've stayed
I just don't feel the closure
It's not coming over
Like it should


How can I
How can you
How can I
How can you
How can I
Get over you?

I can't...


But I'm here waiting
Hope is fading
That you will realize
Realize your mistake
Wish you would've stayed
I just don't feel the closure
It's not coming over
Like it should

No, no, no...
So I'm here waiting
For you

Don't Do It! (lyrics)

Grade A philosophy
Tryin' to be my stand-in savior
You're not the boss of me
And I've never asked for favors
Save me from what hell?
I'm already here
Save me from myself?
I don't need to hear
Don't want to hear


Don't do evil (don't do evil)
You're heading for a chained up pathway
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I wouldn't mind living that way
I can never play nicely
You should never advise me
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I can't make any promises


Can't bear to take the heat
The flames you say I'm burning in
You can't stand to look at me
Well I never demanded that
Save me from what hell?
I can't live in fear
Save me from myself?
I don't need to hear
Don't want to hear


Don't do evil (don't do evil)
You're heading for a chained up pathway
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I wouldn't mind living that way
I can never play nicely
You should never advise me
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I can't make any promises


I don't believe in you
Look what you've put me through
You never knew
All the shit I've dealt with
That you let slip
How could they put faith in you
I never knew


Don't do evil (don't do evil)
You're heading for a chained up pathway
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I wouldn't mind living that way
I can never play nicely
You should never advise me
Don't do evil (don't do evil)
I can't make any promises

Non-Conformist (lyrics)

You're all alone in a world that you created
Everyone around you is so outdated
You can't tell what's wrong here
Something's different or just too the same
It burns you to the core...

You lie awake at night
Tormented by how you're right

And the whole world is wrong
Living blindly to their unoriginal song
Only you can see
How the world is falling so quickly
Because it's not you, it's me
And Us And We
Everyone just follows lead
To you
But to tell you the truth...

You're all alone in a room they vacated
It's all yours to own, it's outdated
That's how you like it here
The only thing different, never the same
Burns the anger deep into your brain...

Insane and awake at night
Convinced on how you're right

And the whole world is wrong
Living blindly to their unoriginal song
Only you can see
How the world is falling so quickly
Because it's not you, it's me
And Us And We
Everyone just follows lead
To you
But to tell you the truth...

Your eyes don't look any different

Is there something I am missing?

You just stare

The world around you is drifting

You never seem to change

You don't care

And the whole world is wrong
Living blindly to their unoriginal song
Only you can see
How the world is falling so quickly
Because it's not you, it's me
And Us And We
Everyone just follows lead
To you
But to tell you the truth...

The only thing unoriginal...
Is you.

Venom (lyrics)

A long string of lies
Breaking all loose ties
It stings a bit but it'll heal (I'm sure)
Have you seen the styles lately?
The wicked smiles, baby
They're a venom that's sinking in (So deeply)


Do you feel it?
The wound's healing
Weakly, meakly
It's stretching cross the skin
Do you see it?
The wound's healing
Slowly, surely
It's starting to look better
Yet still there's venom within...


Old fears arise
A bitter heart's demise
It lingers long but it'll fade (I'm sure)
Is it making you uneasy?
The pain is so pleasing
It's a venom that's consuming you (So deeply)


Do you feel it?
The wound's healing
Weakly, meakly
It's stretching cross the skin
Do you see it?
The wound's healing
Slowly, surely
It's starting to look better
Yet still there's venom within...


Hahahahahaha
The pain took a second
But now you won't forget the lesson
With every snake
There comes a bite
Bitter blood split across your crime scene
And the venom is my means!


Do you feel it?
The wound's healing
Weakly, meakly
It's stretching cross the skin
Do you see it?
The wound's healing
Slowly, surely
It's starting to look better
Yet still there's venom within...

Paranoia (lyrics)

Sleepless nights
Fatal fights caused by the dark
Echoed scars radiate off my shallow heart
I was warned so many times
By my un-seen enemy
Creeping in slowly
To control me

Voices, voices in my head
Repeating things I never said
Voices, voices you're not real
Am I lying?(lying)
Someone, someone's out to get me
Breathing in my ear
Someone, someone's out to get me
Making my thoughts unclear
Someone, someone's out to get me
It's not...me

Ravaged cries
Hollow eyes caused by dead minds
Haunted dreams repeat so many horrid times
I was weakened by my fear
The wall's seem to come in near
Doing what they can
To close me in

Voices, voices in my head
Repeating things I never said
Voices, voices you're not real
Am I lying?(lying)
Someone, someone's out to get me
Breathing in my ear
Someone, someone's out to get me
Making my thoughts unclear
Someone, someone's out to get me
It's not...me

Quiet's not comforting
Shadows all following
Remind me what to fear
Even though it's
Not
Really
Here............

Voices, voices in my head
Repeating things I never said
Voices, voices you're not real
Am I lying?(lying)
Someone, someone's out to get me
Breathing in my ear
Someone, someone's out to get me
Making my thoughts unclear
Someone, someone's out to get me
It's just...me

Liar (lyrics)

Liar, oh liar
Where have you been?
Once again we're looking for you

Settle it
Throw us out the window
Along with your worries
And regrets
Mess with my head
Don't hide the numbers
Of all the lies you've said
I've lived through worse
I'll live through more
Won't stop until I've seen you all
Starting with every secret you've kept
Under your bed

Liar oh liar
Where have ya been?
Once again we're looking for you
Liar oh liar
You'd think you'd learn by now
You've dug a whole and there's no way out
Liar oh liar
If you'd stop selling sob stories
Lying's your specialty
But that could be history
Just take a chance on me...

Pick up the pace
Or pick up your face
Not here for your stalling
Or delays
You keep countin' points
But they never count
If this is just a game
I’m already out
I'll live through more
Won't stop until I've seen you all
Starting with every secret you've kept
Inside your head

Liar oh liar
Where have ya been?
Once again we're looking for you
Liar oh liar
You'd think you'd learn by now
You've dug a whole and there's no way out
Liar oh liar
If you'd stop selling sob stories
Lying's your specialty
But that could be history
Just take a chance on me...

I don't think an honest word has spilled out your mouth
I'm trying to be the one who'd never have to doubt
You
But still I wonder...

Liar oh liar
Where have ya been?
Once again we're looking for you
Liar oh liar
You'd think you'd learn by now
You've dug a whole and there's no way out
Liar oh liar
If you'd stop selling sob stories
Lying's your specialty
But that could be history

Just take a chance on me...

Life Sucks

Yeah, I know I complain a lot about the same things...
But it's because the doubt never fades
I never feel good enough,
I hate everything about myself.
So forgive me for putting up such negative things,
Apparently throwing myself a pity party,
But I feel they're true.
I will never succeed,
I will never find happiness,
My dreams will never come true.
I will be pathetic me for all eternity...

Insanity (quote)

If insanity had a figure like yours, I'd be on all fours. Begging you to take me over, take me under with you...

Martyr (lyrics)

Your words are quiet
But the message is clear
Your eyes are violent
But you say "I can't go on, dear."
You tell me things that I can never seem to
Grip. On. Tightly. Too.
According to you...
My life's perfect.
And it sucks to be you.

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...

Your mind is broken
But does that make it right?
Your eyes aren't open
But you say "I can see just fi-ine."
You explain to me things that I
Would. Never. Live. Through.
According to you...
My life's perfect.
And I could never be you (Like I'd want to!?)

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...

Don't you get tired of being a fool?
Don't you get tired of ruining you?
You've taken it to a new extreme
The lies you've learned to lead
Lost sight of what's right in front of you...

Can you Repeat,
This pity party
It goes over my head
Because you are too far departed
Selfless not Selfish
It can't ever be you
Your life's in spirals
And you can barely move
You've let the world make a martyr out of...
Out of..you..

Sweet Sweet Disease (Fazp and KG)

One too many times into an open ended bloodstream
Close your eyes and lick your lips prepare for the obscene
Torture me with pain that I would not have found myself
Tell me that it's for the best and it's all in good health

So how will you treat me?
When my body is weakening...
Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You're just my disease

Numb the voices in my head convince me they're not real (they're not real)
Break me down with medicine to hate the way I feel
Give me scars on every inch of skin and kiss them all (kiss them all!)
Tie me down in white to make myself match all the walls


So how will you treat me?
When my body is weakening...
Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You're just my disease

Let your pills break me down
Beautiful Cancer eat me out

Heartaches
Headaches
Sweaty Fevers
Sweet, Sweet Release
Choking
Shaking
Blurry Vision
Sweet, Sweet Panacea
Baby you are not the cure, no
You are not the cure, no
You are not the cure, no!
You're just my disease

Thirteen (lyrics)

There are scars that just don't heal
There are words that never drift away
Always lessons that I can't deal with, yeah
Some things won't ever stop hurting

There is pain that I can't escape
And smiles aren't always easy to fake
For years


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...


There are eyes that will never see
There are wrists that will never bleed
But unfortunately those don't belong to me, yeah
And some memories won't ever stop reeling

There is pain that I can't forget
And smiles aren't always easy to fake
Forever


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...


You don't know what's on my mind,
I've broken so many dreams
Time and time again
I keep shutting down
Like I'm thirteen and my vision was spinning
Out of control
Like I'm thirteen and I'll never be winning...
Here.


Cause' I was just thirteen
When the world broke me down
And I was barely living
When I first tried to get out
I was just thirteen
When the world broke my mind
And It was a summer day
When I first froze inside
So my heart will always be thirteen
Til I...die...

Contemplations (Lyrics) 11-9-08

She stares up at the ceiling
Hoping for the pain to die down
She's losing sense of feeling
But her eyes don't start to close now
It's taking too long
She's running out of time
The time she needs to run out of life


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now
Lesson learned


She drowns in red dying white skin
Thinking it's a test from her mind
She doesn't mind if it takes it all
But she hates to waste her time
It's going too slow
She's running out of patience
Patience she holds her breath with til it leaves...


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now
Lesson learned


Don't scare her and say it's not the end
She's almost there, she's almost gone again
Pulse dying down
World's falling all around
No one makes a sound
It's a blessing in disguise...in her broken eyes


They're catching on
But it's too late
They're reaching out a hand
But fate's already on it's way
She's done crying out
But they cry for her
It's quiet now...
Lesson learned


It's quiet.

All Smiles (lyrics)

Can't help but fake em'
When the thought takes over
'You for her'
It tries to break me down
Lie and say it'll fail
My hopes will prevail
'But I know--not'

It breaks me down
It wounds my pride
But I'm not showing pain on the outside

So I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you

Can't fall asleep at night
When dreams creep in slow
'Me and you'
It lies to my hurt heart
Wake up with heavy eyes
Filled with broken cries of
'It will never work...'

It breaks me down
It wounds my pride
But I'm not showing pain on the outside

So I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you

Does pain wash away with the rain?
Because I've tried it all
And still got nothing
It hurts so bad to try and hide
I'm made of storms on the inside
Still I--

I been wondering
Am I obvious?
When I fake
A laugh
Or two
Am I delirious?
When I hope
You'll see
Right through
Or am I that good at...
All smiles for you
Mmmm...I'll smile for you

Words. That's all they are.

You've made a wreck out of me
And yet my heartache isn't that simple to see
I could wear it on my sleeve
And you wouldn't know
You do it so easily
In a way that takes me over
Takes me over to you


Yes, you always could catch my eye
Long enough for me to realize


"I love you" aren't words I can say
When I know you don't feel that way
"Stay with me" isn't something I'll suggest
Even though you're always with the best of me
"I wish..." Oh, Those thoughts never cease
They're only thing that never leave...
Unlike you...


You've got me wrapped up in you
And yet that's only half of the way I feel
I could tell it all to you
And you wouldn't hear a word
You do it so easily
In a way that takes me under
Takes me under everything


So why can't I catch your eyes?
To look in them long enough to realize...


"I love you" aren't words I can say
When I know you don't feel that way
"Stay with me" isn't something I'll suggest
Even though you're always with the best of me
"I wish..." Oh, Those thoughts never cease
They're only thing that never leave...
Unlike you...


I never knew what love was like until I hurt this bad
I never knew the feeling could be one-sided
If I was warned I would never have fallen
"I love you" aren't words I can say
When I know you don't feel that way
"Stay with me" isn't something I'll suggest
Even though you're always with the best of me
"I wish..." Oh, Those thoughts never cease
They're only thing that never leave...
Oooh
I wish you'd stay with me...
I love...
You...

"She's just settling into her skin, and she's taking it out on the world she lives in..." ~ KG

Dedication Lyrics

This is for the liars, cheaters, and deceivers
This is for the haters, players and make-believers


I'm gonna call you out tonight
Did you think I could stay quiet?
I'm not opposed to making a mess
Prepare to start a riot
You know who you are
You know why this started
You know who you are
You just had to be--
So cold hearted!


This is for the liars, cheaters and deceivers
This is for the haters, players and make-believers
Oh!
You can't fool me
Oh, oh!
My eyes can see--Right through you
Bet you never knew


I'm gonna blow your mind tonight
Did you think you would be safer?
When hiding behind a broken mask
A faulty secret keeper
You know why we parted
You know who you are
You just couldn't finish--
What you started!


This is for the liars, cheaters and deceivers
This is for the haters, players and make-believers
Oh!
You can't fool me
Oh, oh!
My eyes can see--Right through you
Bet you never knew


Surprised I bought it for a second
Much colder now that I've learned my lesson
Jilted and confused
But at least I know that now


This is for the liars, cheaters and deceivers
This is for the haters, players and make-believers
Oh!
You can't fool me
Oh, oh!
My eyes can see--Right through you
Bet you never knew
A lie is not code word for the truth.

Chick Band (lyrics)

Flittering
Oh you know you can't stick to one thing
Oh Oh
Fronting
Oh you know it's better than confronting
Oh Oh
Can't you be dedicated
I'd rather ya leave me jaded
Than stick around unclear
Here, Here, Here, Here

Can't be in a chick band
Whoa
The two don't go hand and hand
No-oh
Because we don't seem to give a damn
Oh-No
We're gonna stop right here
At dream wasteland
Because you can't start a chick band

Faking
Oh you know your passion's fading
Oh Oh
Warnings
Oh you know your acting's so informing
Oh Oh
Can't you make up your mind
I'd rather you not waste my time
Than stick around unclear
Here, Here, Here, Here

Can't be in a chick band
Whoa
The two don't go hand and hand
No-oh
Because we don't seem to give a damn
Oh-No
We're gonna stop right here
At dream wasteland
Because you can't start a chick band

We've all lost our minds
Gone back to older times
When all we wanted was to be some boy's toy
Well sorry girls, but
I want more

Can't be in a chick band
Whoa
The two don't go hand and hand
No-oh
Because we don't seem to give a damn
Oh-No
We're gonna stop right here
At dream wasteland
Because you can't start a chick band

"I broke my heart, when I tripped on your stares. Lethal injections didn't seem to affect me there and I could pretend that the Guillotine will give me a second chance. But as long as you're here death will last."

Another One (Lyrics)

What did I do to deserve this?
It was simple enough for you to tear it away
What made you think I could handle this?
Stay alive, with all the shame
I wasn't like most girls til I met you
Never had a thing in common
But I guess a boy breaking my heart
Is the best place to start

I'm just another one
Another trophy on your wall
I'm just another one
Another heart that took the fall
I don't want to be like them
Hate sharing all that pain
But I'm just another one to you
Another girl you've broke apart
With no name

Karma has you on a hit-list
It's gonna make you pay for all the lives you stole away
You better hope that you can handle it
You've dug yourself a very hallow grave
I wasn't like most girls til I met you
Never had a thing in common
But I guess an un-trusting heart
Is the best place to start

I'm just another one
Another trophy on your wall
I'm just another one
Another heart that took the fall
I don't want to be like them
Hate sharing all that pain
But I'm just another one to you
Another girl you've broke apart
With no name

You took it all from me
Did you think it'd be that easy to forget?
You stole my everything
Did you think I would just live and let live?
Cause' you are not another one
You are my first and last
I never forget the name to a face
I'm gonna make you future as heavy as my past

Boy...

I'm just another one
Another trophy on your wall
I'm just another one
Another heart that took the fall
I don't want to be like them
Hate sharing all that pain
But I'm just another one to you
Another girl you've broke apart
With no name

I'm not gonna say (lyrics)

I'm not gonna say
I don't wanna say
How much you mean to me
Oh Ooh

Time, it goes by
Like the ticking of the clock
I keep track of
It goes slowly
Taking over me

And why
I can't figure it out
But I
Give into this doubt
Every time
That you're mine

Maybe, it's just in my head
Crazy, over what's happening
I'm not gonna say
I don't wanna say
How much you mean to me
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh Oh
I won't say, I can't say
How much you mean to me

My heart, beats too fast
From the way you look at me
When you're smiling
It goes through me
Breaking into me

And why
I can't handle it
So I
Give up and quit
Every time
That you're mine

Maybe, it's just in my head
Crazy, over what's happening
I'm not gonna say
I don't wanna say
How much you mean to me
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh Oh
I won't say, I can't say
How much you mean to me

Denial (4x)
Should be put on trial, baby
Because I can't say
I can't saaaay
No, I won't say
I won't saaay
What you, what you

Hey!

Maybe, it's just in my head
Crazy, over what's happening
I'm not gonna say
I don't wanna say
How much you mean to me
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh
Oh Ooh
Oooh Oh Oh Oh
I won't say, I can't say
How much you mean to me

Fall Out Boy is The Only Reason I'm Writing (Lyrics)

You can't be serious
Oh, I've made a fool of myself
Lost track of where you set the bars
Or maybe I'm just behind them
I've gone delirious
Oh, you've caught onto my scent--timent
Catch on faster, if you wanna last here

Most of the things I said
Go over your head
Or under appreciated
Maybe if instead
I can play the preacher
And you'll play the teacher
But whose here to listen
Words are so addicting
As long as someone's around to hear them

Lost in translation
Oh, If only you could speak like me
Fake words that form anomalies
At least that's what I'm told I see
I live in hyperboles
Oh, you've caught on to my truthful lies
Catch on faster, if you gonna last here DEAR

Most of the things I said
Go over your head
Or under appreciated
Maybe if instead
I can play the preacher
And you'll play the teacher
But whose here to listen
Words are so addicting
As long as someone's around to hear them

Let me be cliche
Let me break a name
Let me be cliche
I'm a teen, so I'm insane

Most of the things I said
Go over your head
Or under appreciated
Maybe if instead
I can play the preacher
And you'll play the teacher
But whose here to listen
Words are so addicting
As long as someone's around to hear them

"If I could be a color...it would be be blue. Blue like the sky, blue like the oceans...So even when I'm not around and you're not with me. That one special color...would be everything you see"

Chelsea (Lyrics)

She’s bright on the rainy days
Not shy on the sunny ones either
And she’s wrong in the right ways
Makes you wonder why you need her
But she’s like my Novocain
Makes numb to the world, not to feel the pain
She’ll get what she deserves
As soon as she gets over the worst

Chelsea, Chelsea
Are you listening?
Chelsea, Chelsea
What do you need?
Chelsea, Chelsea
You know I’m a friend to you
Whenever you doubt the world
I won’t leave
Because…
Chelsea, Chelsea
You save me

She dances in the rain
Drop of water cleansing all the pain
She’ll move like a hurricane
Girl will make you insane
She’s got answers
To her own questions
Starlight in her eyes
She’ll get what she deserves
As soon as she gets over the worst

Chelsea, Chelsea
Are you listening?
Chelsea, Chelsea
What do you need?
Chelsea, Chelsea
You know I’m a friend to you
Whenever you doubt the world
Just believe
Because…
Chelsea, Chelsea
You save me

You know I need you here
You know my--dear
You know that we're so close
Yet so far away unlike most
If you doubt yourself
I feel it too
When the sky is dark I hope you're not blue
Because eternal night
Never did suit you ;)

Chelsea, Chelsea
Are you listening?
Chelsea, Chelsea
What do you need?
Chelsea, Chelsea
You know I’m a friend to you
Whenever you doubt the world
Just believe
Because…
Chelsea, Chelsea
You save me

You save me.

"A lonely Friday night, the sky is high without a single light. I know I'll be a wreck tonight, but it's alright. I won't be out of your sight."

Polyglot (Lyrics)

Because the look on your face is the same in every language!

Sliced up into pieces
Jaded underneath it all
Can't face the mirrored memory recall
She moved like wildfire
Well let's watch her burn
Everything we've built before you turned

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Shot down by my weakness
Trusted you with it all
Won't take that chance twice, won't make me fall
She hunted like a lion
And I watched her kill
Everything we've built before you turned

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Wish I
Could say
You've looked better
Wish I
Could see
What you let her see
You're not the person I used to know
You tried so hard to make him go away
Away Away Away...Away...

Turn around
Can't you look at me no more?
Stare me down
Before you walk out that door
Face me now
You don't want me to see your eyes
Because the look on your face is the same in every language!
You're dying inside

Good Friend (Poem)

Thanks for being a “good friend”
The nights I needed a shoulder to cry on
I used a pillow then
Thanks for always “being there”
The times I needed to see you badly
You dismissed my calls without a care
Thanks for being “like blood”
The days I needed a sisterly figure
I was stepped all over, feeling lower than mud
Thanks for always “sticking around”
The hours I needed a healing hand
Nothing appeared…allowing my soul to spill on the ground


Thanks for being a “good friend”

The seconds I needed arms to crash in

You watched simply forgetting to catch me then…

Forever (Poem)

People come and people go
All of their lives intertwine
At moments their hearts can beat as one
They say their love will out last time
But one second can change their lives
And that is where forever ends.

Love changes time
The days become longer,
Your heart beats fast
Time changes love
One second you feel warm inside,
But that rarely last.

They say their love will out last time
But one second can change their lives
The new message their heart sends
They said they’d love you forever
But that’s where forever ends.

Back in the fall (Short Story)

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He said as she clung on tightly to his hand that day. She didn’t want to let go. The so many times before when she never had to, she would, but this time she couldn’t build up the strength to. As she stood close to him she thought about how saying goodbye this time came with chances, risks that would break her heart to take…she had no choice though. His hand fell from hers and tears brimmed in her eyes as she looked down to the floor. She couldn’t bear if he saw her this way.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He murmured again lightly, more to calm himself than to comfort her. He his heart dropped into his stomach as he felt the warmth fade away from his hand as the girl he loved let it go. He stared blankly at her, not seeing her face as she hid it from him. He regretted having to leave the one ray of hope in his life even for a second and now…it would be longer, much longer. He shook his head trying to clear away all the cold thoughts from his mind and touched her chin lightly, lifting her face to his. He kissed her gently feeling her lips quiver as she tried not to cry. She pulled away slowly, obviously not able to handle this hurt anymore. He knew she wouldn’t want him to see her this way. He left.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” Those words drifted in and out of her mind slowly staying longer each time. The months passed, but even so, each seemed like a year. Letters would come occasionally. He would tell her each time how much he missed her, how he was still okay and how he’d “be back in the fall”. Those re-assuring words did little good though. She wasn’t the same with out him. Even the beautiful summer days seemed like the most freezing of winter nights when his arms weren’t around her. She cried in their bed everyday and when she couldn’t cry anymore she still felt like she had no breath, as if the tears were still there, making her heart pound. Outside, in the real world, no one knew. She kept a false smile even though it hurt her. With each new smile her heart ached a little more. She tried to go on this way, only because she knew how much her loved her smile.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” He jotted down on the piece of stationary she bought for him the day she found out he was leaving. The bombs from miles away sounded softer as he faded into thoughts of her. She was his escape, from the pain of the day, from the pain of no longer being the same after all he had seen. The deaths of friends, comrades, people he even killed himself haunted him. He didn’t want to be this way, a hollow shell of what he once was, but it was impossible for him to go back to the old him. Except, when she was on his mind. He never told her how horrible he felt in his letters. He didn’t want to even think of tears in her eyes, tears like the ones he cried every night. He wanted to think…she’d smile. That smile he loved, the smile he’d die to see in the fall.

“I’ll be back in the fall.” She repeated to herself standing still, the words he told her oh so many months ago. Tears were coming out of her eyes as the breeze blew through her hair on that fall day. She knelt down to the ground crouching amongst the leaves that had fallen from the trees surrounding her. She had been outside at that very spot for hours, still not believing that he kept his promise…not in this way. Her hand gently touched the cold stone she was in front of. Her fingers moved along the engraving carved. It was his name and now she regretted that he was back in the fall.

Dedicated to all those who’ve lost a loved one in the line of duty.

Random!

Once upon a time there was a piece of toast. Oh, what did that toast love most? Jelly on it's belly and it certainly did smelly delicious! Toast and Jelly TEEHEE

Nerd Girls (Good Girls Go Bad Parody)

I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go
Nerd girls go bad
Nerd girls go bad

I know you're type
yeah you're a chem major
yeah you're that girl
who does her friend's homework
but just one night you wanna do some wrong
maybe youll go and wear a thong

You're a wiz in class
But tonight, you're a pyschopath

I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go bad
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad

I know you're type
Girl you speak math words
Yeah you're that chick
I pay to be my tutor
But maybe once I'll invite you out
and learn what nerds are all about

You were so confused
Until I gave you some booz

I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go bad
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad

WHOOOOOOAAAA

She got the grades on the SAT
Gonna get her into Yale
But I got the booz in my car backseat
That will make her finally fail
Yeah, she got the grades on the SAT
Gonna get her into Yale
But I got the booz in my car backseat
That will make her finally fail

I make them nerd girls go bad
(She's gonna fail a test)
I make them nerd girls go
I make them nerd girls go
Baaaaaddd
Yeaaaaaah
Nerd girls go
You were sitting in your room
Kissin your posters
You finished your pre-calc
So you went fangirl!
I make them nerd girls go bad
I make them nerd girls go
nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad
Bad bad
Nerd girls go bad

Here

I said I never
Wanted to break you down
I said I never
Wanted to start you up
I only wanted to make you see
The way this all has come out for me
But now all that it seems to be
Is us unable to think
Take a minute and let it sink
Into your mind
Because now we're here
Where is here?
Here is the place where it's not eye to eye
The place you think I want you to lie
I didn't ask you to comfort me
Disarm me
I didn't ask you to charm me
Your sudden changes to alarm me
Here is a state of mind the one we never share
The place where wrong is right & right means I just don't care
I didn't ask you to give into me
To make it seem like my love is just a plee
For attention
For victory
For anything
I can't take it while we're

Here
I guess I'm saying all these...
Honest thoughts
Out of fear
I know our end is near
But still...I just wanted things to be clear

But they will never be...

Here

You Made Me

If there was a moment I could take back
Every option would be of you
Seeing your eyes, your smile, your careless whispers
Letting you break me out all I knew

I don't regret who I am now
But I regret that you're not here
I regret that me finally being me
Is thanks to the lost, but once dear

Who I am and Who I was
Who you fell for and Who you caused
How could I think you'd love them all
When all I have is the "bottom of your heart"

A peace of mind in a passive place
I've searched for this in an open space
But closed in, close to you
Was the only time I ever escaped the truth

You're gone, I'm here
Just making it clear...
Seeing your eyes, your smile
Your careless whispers
A broken heart takes a while
Because the deepest arrow hits first

Who I was and Who I am
Who you caused had unsteady hands
Not good for holding on
To you...

A passing thought, but still the truth
You made me.

Cut me deep, Cut me off

Be something you're not
Be something I want
Be the person I know
Be the person you show
Be the one I can vent to
Be the one who I can dig my claws into
Be the girl who will laugh even when she's hurting
Be the girl who won't ever go deserting...me
Be whatever you want as long as I like it
Be whatever makes you happy as long as my opinions are invited.

Let me tell you who you are
Let me make you from the start
Let me analyze your mind
Let me help you waste my time
Let me build you up and tear you down
Let me guilt you into staying around
Let me be the disaster you love
Let me be the pain that fits like a glove
Let me play leech while you play my rock
Let me keep you under key and lock

You can't ever be yourself
You always have to be someone else
You won't dare face up to me
You can barely speak honestly
You don't think you're alive
You will never leave my hive
You wouldn't ever hurt me right?
You have no power to fight
You're already under my skin
You have no chance, I will win...

I blog, You blog, We all Blog

Am I supposed to write my feelings here? I don't know how I feel. I feel everything. From Affectionate to Zealous. I really don't know how to express it clearly. All I can say is, I feel like me and that's pretty damn awesome. Open and shut case....I don't blog very well.

Love KG

Anymore (Lyrics)

You...
You think you know who I am
You think you see who I am
But I'm here to say
You don't know one thing anymore
I believed in you
But this point we have come to
I'm here to say
I can't keep false hope anymore

I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

You...
You thought you knew how I felt
You thought I was somebody else
Hoped I would say
I can't live without you anymore
I wanted you
But this point we had come to
I had to say
I can't keep holding anymore

I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

Who am I?
Who was it I used to see?
It took some time
I've made up my mind
But it doesn't mean I left
That easily...
That easily...........


I was hoping for a light
At the end of this tunnel
And I was wishing that you
Would make me turn around
I needed you
But it was too much pain to go through
I still love you
But I had to go...
Baby...
You don't know me...
Anymore.

Cry

I know I shouldn’t do this
At least not now
I’ve been breaking down for so long
I just don’t know how
How to breathe? How to live?
how to want this…why?
There’s nothing left for me to do
Just lay my head down & cry
Cry because I’m missing you
Cry because the pain is too
much to handle now alone
Cry because my heart is aching
Cry because my whole world is breaking
now that I can’t seem to want to live
I’ll cry tonight because I know
I had so much more…to give
I know I shouldn’t do this
But it’s right about time
I’ve been breaking down for so long
And now is when I’ll cross the line
Tonight I’ll cry.